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when i was young, i watched IT, an adaptation of stephen king's novel with the same title, in the confines of my dark living room with my auntie(it was late night after all). now years later, the movie still remains as one of the best i've ever watched. the show not only plays with your stomach(as most horror flicks do only now), but with your mind as well. even now i could remember a terrified me, huddled next to my equally if not more terrified auntie, trying to sleep after the show.
sure, the whole concept about killer clowns with huge appetites sound silly now, but it still is one the most horrifying movies i've ever watched. the introduction to the movie, which showed a boy, playing with paper boats in the rain near the drain where the clown hides, resulting, was unsettling. not with the fact that one has fallen prey to the clown - there wasn't much of killer-clown sequences - but with the way the clown taunted the kid behind the drain grates(if i can remember something like that for such a long time..it had to mean something!). there was a rhyme of some kind, which the clown recited everytime he appears(or wadeva)..and honestly that was scary. shall try to find that rhyme. anyways, from what i can remember, somebody found out he's dead, then it's cut to the funeral scene, where someone leaves the photo album of the brothers open - to the portrait of the dead one. then suddenly blood was oozing all over the photo. whoa. the show was actually about evil in the form of the clown, and occasionally in the shape of the person's worst fears.
i also actually thought the bathroom scene where one of the guys killed himself rather than to go back again, then splays "IT" with blood on the tile freakish.
i guess that was one show that set my standards to horror flicks. there wasn't much movies after that that i actually thought was really scary, especially recent ones, not with all the blood and gore injected to suit the teens nowadays. not even exorcist..i kinda thought that show was lame, but what the heck. maybe it's because i'm grown(IT doesn't seem so scary now that i watch it again), or it might be because films now just don't cut it. we shall see.
meanwhile, am finding some horror flicks to scare, enjoy or to laugh at to pass some time. any suggestions?
argh. feel like im gonna fall sick soon. right smack into the middle of chinese new year. damn. doesn't really make much of a difference anyway, new year doesn't really feel like new year this year. now im beginning to sound like i speak in riddles. anyways, glad this week's almost over. been fighting down a surge of depression that's been trying to suppress me. hopefully the beginning of a new week will turn my mood around. hopefully. gonna eat dinner soon...be back.
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ahhh..blogger's finally back on.
feeling pretty down this whole week, though why i dont know. little things have been getting me down lately. oh well.
haven't been updating in tis lil' thing for quite a while. so here's my life for the past week:
monday: nothing much happened. suffered from monday blues. found out todae that the birds have gone. not flew away kinda gone, but dead and rotting kinda gone. mom told me their sad plights - one was thrown away by its mother(after mine touched it), one was missing some days after(wondered where it went), and the other was just plain dead. argh. there goes another point to plummet my mood further.
tuesday: again, nothing much. suffered from tuesday blues. tried studying for geography and maths in the little time i had left. gave up after some time. went shopping for new clothes for the new year. with peishi. and weishan. and wenlin. and ningzi. oh well. i have to say, clothes do not look appealing when you most want it. spent the entire day(what's left of it anyways - peishi weishan n mel was late. as usual.) looking for clothes that i want to like. which wasn't much. it seemed the clothes were all hiding from me that day. ended up with a long sleeved toga(black) from 77th street, and a starch-collared 3/4 sleeved shirt(black as well). which i like. but now i don't have clothes to wear for the new year. great.
wednesday: needless to say, geography sucked. didn't even have time to complete the questions. maths was a lil' better, considering i never even touched it. went home anticipating the much awaited nap, which by the way never came...(what the heck). felt lousier than before
thursday(today~): today wasn't so bad i guess. time passed pretty quickly, and we had out first house practice of the year. hoong ta was late, which meant i had to organise the stupid fuckin prissy little people and get them into the mood. which i was so not looking forward to. help arrived in the form of xiaoying, who helped lead the (dead) cheer team. thank god for help. had roast chicken for dinner tonight =D~. thinking bout making sandwiches to bring for school tomorrow. shall see what happens.
mood at the moment: feeling pretty good for this week.
song at the moment: tatu - all the things she said (ohmanimhooked!)
ahhh..blogger's finally back on.
feeling pretty down this whole week, though why i dont know. little things have been getting me down lately. oh well.
haven't been updating in tis lil' thing for quite a while. so here's my life for the past week:
monday: nothing much happened. suffered from monday blues. found out todae that the birds have gone. not flew away kinda gone, but dead and rotting kinda gone. mom told me their sad plights - one was thrown away by its mother(after mine touched it), one was missing some days after(wondered where it went), and the other was just plain dead. argh. there goes another point to plummet my mood further.
tuesday: again, nothing much. suffered from tuesday blues. tried studying for geography and maths in the little time i had left. gave up after some time. went shopping for new clothes for the new year. with peishi. and weishan. and wenlin. and ningzi. oh well. i have to say, clothes do not look appealing when you most want it. spent the entire day(what's left of it anyways - peishi weishan n mel was late. as usual.) looking for clothes that i want to like. which wasn't much. it seemed the clothes were all hiding from me that day. ended up with a long sleeved toga(black) from 77th street, and a starch-collared 3/4 sleeved shirt(black as well). which i like. but now i don't have clothes to wear for the new year. great.
wednesday: needless to say, geography sucked. didn't even have time to complete the questions. maths was a lil' better, considering i never even touched it. went home anticipating the much awaited nap, which by the way never came...(what the heck). felt lousier than before
thursday(today~): today wasn't so bad i guess. time passed pretty quickly, and we had out first house practice of the year. hoong ta was late, which meant i had to organise the stupid fuckin prissy little people and get them into the mood. which i was so not looking forward to. help arrived in the form of xiaoying, who helped lead the (dead) cheer team. thank god for help. had roast chicken for dinner tonight =D~. thinking bout making sandwiches to bring for school tomorrow. shall see what happens.
im quiz happy after readin marie's blog. shall refrain from speaking anymore today..
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oh man..i typing-incapable today. just look at my (horribly) written blog. ahHhhhhhh...bless me.
ps: someon's com is fixed..(finally!) hehz shhh
woke up todae to a not-gonna-do-anything feeling. which was kinda wrong. thought i was left out cause todae was supposed to be xinyin's prize ceremony, and nobody told me anything. turns out they had lots of trouble looking for me. darn my lack of a handphone. so there i was, feeling sorry for myself(itz just sundays), when xinyin called. she told me 3.05..and not to be late. i took those words seriously. so much so that i arrived at 3.06. unfortunately for me. damn. they came at 3.36(!!!!)..half an hour later than me. half an hour!!!! then i was told that they were supposed to meet at 3.25!!! damn damn damn damn damn. !!. so i was fooled. fool of the day. that was the only hitch of the day. rest of the day was enjoyed cracking (lame) jokes about the rest of the contestants...and getting deaf(once more). so there.
can you tell ur ass from your elbow?
ahh..beginning to feel like myself again. went to the mtv asia awards yesterday. this year's show was, well, much better. almost didn't get to get in, cause the bitch sold us duplicated copies. damn her cursed soul. wish she would drop dead. oh well. guess there were hundreds of fake copies around, cause the stupid woman at the reg corner was lenient to some, and not so to others. wenlin was one of them. argh. i personally think that wenlin was the cause for her non-lenientness, cause others could get in w/o the name of the roadshow winner too. so it just so happens that she got on the nerves of that stupid woman, and when we got back from the red carpet to receive our tickets we were rejected. then came several tense minutes of waiting...for extra tix..and thank god for extras. so off we went, n by the time we got in missy elliot was already halfway done. hellava show man. she rawked the whole house.so damn cool. avril was beee-u-ti-ful...and small...i mean, she was tiny. jay was great, atomic kitten were, pretty(hey! a surprise! i didn't like them much.), shaggy was...erm..shaggy. coco was er..shagedelic(oh my god look at that lame pun). utt was soooo cute, his co host was pretty too. and nice. and friendly. and nice. and pretty. hah. matchbox twenty! oh my god oh my god oh my god! ahaahaaz. they were awesooooooooooome! got to shake hands with blue minus duncan...and chester!!!!! and joe!!!!! though chester's hand was a wee bit clammy n cold. he was so cute, bouncin' off here n dere. anyways...sure everybody's gettin bored of me now.
so when we went in missy waz doin her thang, and we pretty much danced alll the way to the front. well, danced and squeezed(hey it was free sitting - whoops i meant standing). stupid us. we squeezed right into the middle of the f4 cum jtl club. and they were screaming all their fuckin little heads off. not to mention our ears. i mean, everybody else was pissed at them. so i proclaimed(loudly) that i was goona stuff my binoculars into whoeva's mouth if they waz gonna keep at it. which got me several stares(not that i cared). so we were jumping away to the wonderful performance(avril's we couldnt really hear at first though). i have decided: robbie williams really does have charm. it was oozing outta him while he was on stage. only thing i didnt like was all the ass shakin'. oh well.
the whole thing ended at 'bout 10, so lucky us - we took the bus/train home.
wow. can't believe i actually wrote all that. but i can, really. i was mad...i mean really ma-ad last night. stupid people with their stupid negativity can make me like that. pretty embarassing to havve such thing posted actually. but i aint gonna delete it. sooo...whoosh.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
if only words could explain how i feel...........
just HATE my FUCKiNG FAMIY. fuckin hate it. hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it....ARGHHhhhhhhhhhhhhHH
so now everything has to be my fault. my fuckin fault. its always me. bad sheep. spoiled brat. fucking delinquent. everything screwed in this world has to be my fault. my responsibility. so what am i supposed to do now?! no emotions. no faults. why don;t they just get a fuckin robot for god's sakes. NOT ME. i aint perfect. nobody is. EVERYBODY else thinks they are. everybody HAS to fucking be perfect. screw me.
can't have opinions. can;'t have thoughts. can't have moods. why, ingredients for the PERFECT girl. fucking impossible. i rather u beat me dead with a stick. gotta listen to every fuckin' word that comes my way. what do you take me as? some kinda couseller? some kinda freakin' chat hotline?! i dont wanna listen. yet i can;t. so now im wrong. just for not wanting to listen to no CRAP. you don wanna listen to me spouting MY "nonsense"...yet i gotta listen to you spout yours. yo-u dont even listen to your fucking self. you just love the sound of your voice toomuch...you dont fucking care wad u sae. what kinda fucking law is that. equality? bullshit. dictative. i dont care. i dont wanna care. i'll explode if i hafta listen to all ya crap everyday. i need release. i yearn for release. i dont get no fucking release.
i aint stupid. im mad. fuckin furious. i jsut fucking wanna kill all of them. so much you'll never understand. ARGHH. if i just had a knife....
godamn i'll makethem understand. one day when all breaks loose i'll make them understand. then they'll cower in fear of what will come...and i'll fucking make them understand all that they put me through all these years.
feeling extremely irritated now. everything just...sucks. doesn't help that im doin maths now. hate maths. hate school. hate life. hate conversations. hate my family. argh..in a hateful mood today.
today actually started out well. went to ningzi, xinyin and xiaoying's com today. of them all, only xinyin got a third. which is sooo totally unfair. not with xinyin's win, thats wheee! for her...but bout the others. i mean, can't understand why slutish looking people who can't sing for nuts can win the thing. guess it was the whole girls school(high class standard) thing. the gal that did ayumi's appears was good. sounded identical. man. still think that my friends should win. anyways, got consolations prizes for all of them, which we had a feast on after(it was all food, by the way), so it was kinda ok..on the whole.
came back home to a grumpy me. can't account for the sudden mood change, but it was probably cause everybody was irritating me. first off, it was my auntie. she had to go on show me the stupid article on saving money(which included lesser pocket money and lesser meals outside). what pissed me off was that she didn't say all those for the sake of saying it - she had an ulterior motive. to show that i have too much pocket money...and to emphasize on not eating out. Then it was my mother. she kept insisting i eat the leftovers of their dinner, which i refused oh so many times because i'm so damn bloated. she keeps having the misconception that i haven't had enough to eat and keeps,well, bugging me. then she had to accuse me of doing something that is so damn ridiculous. then my maths, stupid questions that keep going roound n round without an ending. it didn't help that the loud conversations my auntie was having with my grandma bout her overeacting to things (in my opinion) was so annoying. see that's the thing with my auntie. she keeps scolding my grandpa for being so sensitive to the little things that don't matter, but deep inside she's just like him. every little thing she's afraid of. i mean, i've heard of taking precautions, but, too much is too much. she 's afraid of so many things, her life's so restricted and she can't enjoy herself.
then there was the stupid com. i hate it more and more. should just dump it somewhere where trains can run over it.the programs don't work half the time, and those that do usually stop working after a while. what's more, "trusty" programs just quit when u most need them. like my sound recorder. stupid damn thing only managed to recored 3 miserable songs in mp3 format before sputtering dead. then i had to record in wave. then it totally became unrecordable. then i had to try and download other softwares. THEN i realised most the progs allowed u to only rec for a few secs...before quitting altogether. so many hours on the com, and i feel i haven't done anything. i feel bloated and my throat feels horrid. i'm going deaf from all the screaming during the competition. i have a headache from all the nagging. my nose hurts from my auntie's aromatheraphy. i can't type propely cause internet explorer keeps poopping out new windows. can my day suck any more?!?~!?~!?
dream intepretation of freaky-dreams.com as follows:
Words like dark: Mystery. The unknown and unformed. A place of fear or of potential. Difficulties ahead.
Words like fears: Unexpressed love. Self-doubts. Courage.
Words like new: Change. Time. Ready for a new start.
Words like back: Changes in life. Family arguments. Approaching money.
Words like alley: Life's passage. A narrow or secret way. Gossip.
Words like new: Change. Time. Ready for a new start.
Words like train: Followers. String. Connections. Be aware of present changes in your life.
Words like cabin: Domestic troubles. Love affairs.
Words like teachers: Knowledge. Skills. Ready to learn something by example or past experience.
Words like blond: Glamour. Artifice. Frivolity.
Words like young: Vigor. Freshness. Need for experience and understanding.
Words like hair: Attraction and sensuality. If you dream of hair means that you are careless in your personal affairs and will lose advancement by neglecting mental application.
Words like : Unexplained. Secret. You are curious about something going on around you.
Words like school: Discipline. Instruction. You have the skills to resolve a problem.
Words like : Unexplained. Secret. You are curious about something going on around you.
Words like : Unexplained. Secret. You are curious about something going on around you.
Words like back: Changes in life. Family arguments. Approaching money.
Words like back: Changes in life. Family arguments. Approaching money.
Words like back: Changes in life. Family arguments. Approaching money.
Words like : Unexplained. Secret. You are curious about something going on around you.
Words like time: Irreversible. Continuity. Arrival or departure of feelings. Organizing your inner self.
Words like playing: Amusement. Joy. Free movement. Need for fun and carefreeness.
Words like train: Followers. String. Connections. Be aware of present changes in your life.
Words like or: Restricted vision. Cloud. Screen .Looking to hide certain feelings.
Words like cabins: Domestic troubles. Love affairs.
Words like : Unexplained. Secret. You are curious about something going on around you.
Words like train: Followers. String. Connections. Be aware of present changes in your life.
Words like fear: Unexpressed love. Self-doubts. Courage.
Words like : Unexplained. Secret. You are curious about something going on around you.
Words like hell: Complete change of your circumstances. Spiritual agony. Lack of control. Torment.
Words like cabin: Domestic troubles. Love affairs.
Words like or: Restricted vision. Cloud. Screen .Looking to hide certain feelings.
Words like school: Discipline. Instruction. You have the skills to resolve a problem.
Words like back: Changes in life. Family arguments. Approaching money.
Words like doors: Access. Ready to enter or something to keep private. Happiness and long life.
Words like : Unexplained. Secret. You are curious about something going on around you.
Words like : Unexplained. Secret. You are curious about something going on around you.
Words like leg: Is associated with support and movement. Joy and happiness.,but an injured leg denotes unprofitable occupations.
Words like up: Feminine projection. Improved image. How do you want to be seeing in the outside world.
Words like back: Changes in life. Family arguments. Approaching money.
Words like : Unexplained. Secret. You are curious about something going on around you.
Words like back: Changes in life. Family arguments. Approaching money.
Words like nightmare: Horrifying event. Frightening condition.
Words like alarm: Big changes. Troubles ahead.
Words like back: Changes in life. Family arguments. Approaching money.
Words like down: Overturned. Confusion. Great disorder. You want to straighten something out.
Words like or: Restricted vision. Cloud. Screen .Looking to hide certain feelings.
Words like alarm: Big changes. Troubles ahead.
Words like clock: Running out of time. Important business news.
Words like up: Feminine projection. Improved image. How do you want to be seeing in the outside world.
Words like time: Irreversible. Continuity. Arrival or departure of feelings. Organizing your inner self.
hmm...
just discovered that there are actually oh so many ways to publish my site. wondered where i had been all this while. anyways i just found out, to which i'm just gonna ignore. not gonna go there...not just yet(i'm surprised). i mean, imagining a few people that i know(don't know) reading this is..oh-kay...but to know that everyone who knows you - online anyway - can have access to your own sanctuary is..whoa.
had a really wierd dream just. which is why i'm actually here so early.
mood/setting: dark, coldish, wet. fear's present..as well as loneliness?
place: arcade sorta place, streets were new york back alley kinda feel to it(not that i've been to new york before..), train cabin?
characters: me as myself, my uncle(damn), adeline/marie?, ningzi, teachers?, one oldish guy i don't even know. 3 backalley people..one of which is blond. and young. and a female. with long hair. wadeva
i was in some kinda arcade. feeling pretty warm but not contented. probably because of the presence of my uncle. he was hammering away on his game, the only he plays somewhere to the right of me..down one step. the whole place was built like a terraced farm(i.e steps)(somethin' like snookerium im amk). felt the urge to follow adeline/marie when she went out. first thing noticed 'bout outside was the cold. bitter, sad, urgh. another thing was the 3 people, one of which is the blondie. the other was that my uncle(nosy as always), came along. he was standing to the doorway. just looking. didn't like that. at all. there was just something bout blondie.....i felt the need to prove my superiority. which she totally wasn't impressed. another wierd thing was that i was afraid - not afraid of missing school kinda afraid...but really afraid - that i will lose sight of adeline/marie .
then when i did i decided to get back in. which began another part to my wierd dream. it was as if my uncle knew i was gonna go in...he just left and went back in. which is kinda freaky now that i think back . he was in another game this time, on my step, playing one of my games. please realise by now that i'm assuming..cause strange things happen in dreams... i felt wierdly left out..like in shows when everybody gathers around and you are left out. this literally happened.
so i was on a train now. or bus rather. and i think we're on some kinda excursion. not in singapore, that i know, for reasons i will explain later. there was this spot, just between cabins which the dream me liked to go. to zone out. and think. and do wadeva i do alone. so that was where i wanted to go. i vaguely remember passing this oldish guy sleeping..on a reclined seat. so i went, to find out there's a piece of paper wedged between the seats. the kinda paper you burn to dead people , that's what. i think it was custom in the dream on the train that anyplace that has had people died before will have that kinda papers stuck on it. to show that someone has died before(so we won't disturb)..and to appease the spirit. so there i was, fear rising...and suddenly - this mannequin like person(victim?) flashed before me. freaked the hell outta me. i remeber movingrunning out to the cabin(my cabin), frantically trying to tell ningzi what i saw. a sense of foreboading crossed me then, for i "disturbed" the spirit. or something. we were arriving at the excursion spot, and i was in a mad rush to get out the bus/train. i know we're not in s'pore cause i distinctly remember myself trying to think of ways to not take the school bus/train on the way back. that, and a mad jumble of nonsense. i was squeezing my way through the doors with ningzi when i felt something grab - more like a scratch - my leg. i practically could feel it probably cause i was on my way to waking(or probably have already). see the most wierdest thing at that point was that i vaguely remember waking up and looking at the clock..which read 6.23...then going back to sleep - against my own will. it was like being pushed back to a nightmare i already had woken from. i know my alarm was gonna ring..though i set it for 6.20(another oddity of mine) so back i was, down the bus, hysterically trying to tell ningzi(very loudly) what just happened. it seemed nobody believed me, or even wanted to listen. then my alarm clock rang and i was blessedly awoken. with difficulty. had i not woken up at that time, it would turn out to be another one of those i -can't-move-or-get-up-even-though-i'm-trying kinda dreams. freaky.
ok..this is kinda late. not actually intending to get anything written down today at all, but i'm just trying to waste time here. today's another boring day. pretty much..'cept e.j's gotten into trouble. oh well. guys and their egos. something to do with bball and big mouths. the lower secs were playin with ball during chinese lesson(their recess), and broke the window when the ball flew through. no actually, the window did not break. it just flew a distance. some entertainment for us i guess. was practically counting the seconds to 1405. seemed a eternity. it's pretty good now, cause 2 period science lessons will now most probably be lab sessions, which generally pass faster than norm lessons. with the exeption of today, that is. whole of 4th floor was packed with the bad names in school after school today - all in honor of e.j. i gotta say, he should feel proud(in a sick, perverse kinda way)...everybody was up coz of him. just can't figure out why they do all this. it just seems so....childish. kids these days. hah.
watched the faculty yesterday night. the ending kinda sucked. i know, with teen horrow flicks and all, but, i mean it in another way... the ending well, this pop girl goes out with geek boy. only now geek boy becomes hero. which kinda strikes me as superficial. the girl anyway. i mean..look! she dissed him coz he was nerdy, went out with the school quarterback, den poof! suddenly she's with hero of the day. oh yea..quarterback's now nerdy. what the heck. can't believe the movie people actually put that on. talk about bad influences and all. oh well. shows these days.
You've Been Flirting Again
all that she said was true
all that she said was true
give her some time
give her some space
all that she said was true
all that she meant was good
all that she meant was good
give her some time
give her some space
all that she meant was good
how you reacted was right
how you reacted was right
give her some time
give her some space
how you reacted was right
i was right then. this song's great!
tired lately. dunno why. feel like writing, but dun feel like relating. argh. found the song to the ad of first touch. downloading it now....can't wait! the song sounds..haunting. but then again, some of the songs broadcasted over tv somehow sound differently downloaded. look what happened to the charmed song(goodbye to my homies). oh well. can't wait.
school's pretty much the same routine. less than 2 weeks, and i'm getting bored already. argh. legs hurt after running 8 rounds during p.e. lesson the day before. could hardly walk. anyways had another lesson wil ismail. she was just being the same old her..ie irritating and screechingly loud. my nose itched like crazy, but i can't say anything bad happened to me today, though a sudden burst of irritance rose in me sometime during recess to maths lesson. wierd i am.
guess i wrote something after all.
xOx
interesting thing that happened today: --we were discussing bout the new whisper packaging xinyin brought(purplish design thing)...kinda...er...nice. for a pad. anyway moving on...
--zhoo treated us to ice cream and iced tea. found out that qing's com crashed(no wonder...) =D
http://www.liquidgeneration.com/sabotage/vision_sabotage.asp
Prince of Mirkwood
heh.
bored. tiring day today. going back soon. want to catch sixth sense. anyways. mopped the floor and washed the clothes today. did homework too. mom's coming back tomorrow night. extremely irritated cause i cant play warcraft 3. after searching for it for soooo long....argh.
school day tomorrow. sad already.
A different quiz, what strange type of person are you?
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Q1. What is your name?
Ans :dap
Q2. What colour pants are you wearing right now?
Ans : greenish brown 3/4ers
Q3. What are you listening to right now?
Ans : sorry seems to be the hardest word - blue
Q4. What are the last four digits of your phone number,mobile or home?
Ans : 1415
Q5. What was the last thing you ate?
Ans : guava
Q6. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
Ans : those rainbow coloured ones(so i can be all at once..heh)
Q7. Where do you plan to go on your honeymoon?
Ans : somewhere...far
Q8. How is the weather right now?
Ans : night time after a downpour
Q9. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Ans : xinyin
Q10.What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Ans : hair, features
Q11.Do you like the person that send you this?
Ans : yeah, kewl guy
12.How are you today?
Ans : in a state of lethargy. cranky.
Q13.Your favourite drink?
Ans : lemon juice
Q14.Youre favourite gassy drink?
Ans : erm..coke?
Q15.How do you eat an oreo?
Ans : twist off...lick the cream...eat the rest
Q16.Favourite sport to watch?
Ans: anything cept golf
Q17.What's the next CD you're going to get?
Ans : can't think of one
Q18.Hair colour?
Ans : bleugh..disgustingly..fake wig black
Q19.Eye Colour?
Ans : purple =x
Q20.Wear contacts?
Ans : yea
Q21.Favourite month?
Ans : hols
Q22.Favourite food?
Ans : im not fussy bout food
Q23.Last movie you watched?
Ans : lord of the rings
Q24.Favourite day of the year?
Ans : feb 29
Q25.Are you shy to ask someone out?
Ans : someone i like? yea...
Q26.Hugs or Kisses?
Ans : both =)
Q27.Relationship or one night stands?
Ans : both =x
Q28.Chocolate or vanilla?
Ans : choc!!
Q29.u want your friends to write back?
Ans : read: YEAH
Q30.Who is most likely to respond?
Ans : erm. marie?
Q31.LIVING ARRANGEMENT?
Ans : norm hdb flat
Q32.What Book are you reading now?
Ans : just finished patricia cornwell's from potter's field
Q33.FAVOURITE BOARD GAMES?
Ans : don't play well...chinese chess?
Q34.FAVOURITE MAGAZINE(S)?
Ans : read some here n dere
Q35.FAVOURITE SMELLS?
Ans : estee lauder's pleasures...cookies out of a oven...bread out of an oven..guy's scents...actually anything pleasant's good enuff.
Q36.LEAST FAVOURITE SMELLS?
Ans : smelli socks get caught in the rain
Q37.FAVOURITE SOUND?
Ans : r & b..hip-hop
Q38.BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
Ans: happiness. contentment.
Q39.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU AWAKE?
Ans : so soon?
Q40.FAVOURITE COLOUR(s)?
Ans : black red silver. anything's good.
Q41.HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?
Ans : depends
Q42.FUTURE CHILD's NAME?
Ans : i like nadya
Q43.WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?
Ans : contentment. friends. love. appreciation.
Q44.FAVOURITE FLOWER?
Ans : erm..erh..dunno
Q45.FAVOURITE DRESS CODE?
Ans : currently...avril lavignish
Q46.DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST?
Ans : think i will. lots
Q47.DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
Ans : used to sleep wif a bed full of stuffed toys. got them all off cause they tk up too much space..=D. have a couple here n dere
Q48.AFRAID OF STORMS?
Ans : not realli
Q49.WHAT TYPE WAS/WILL BE YOUR FIRST CAR?
Ans : sleek posh fast(!) car/ small bubbly car
Q50.IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE?
Ans : christina aguilera! a real life vampire...ahhahaz
Q51: WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR B'DAE?
Ans : sad. juz another day. depends.
Q52.YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?
Ans: rabbit...leo
Q53.DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF Broccoli?
Ans : er..yes...
Q54.YOU HAVE PATIENCE?
Ans : too little
Q55.WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE DO YOU DISLIKE?
Ans : people that give off bad vibes...backstabbers...position crawlers..faux people...lots
Q56.WHAT TYPE OF GIRL/GUY WLD U BE INTERESTED IN?
Ans : someone i can talk to.
Q57.WHAT WOULD YOU DO TO IMPRESS A GIRL/GUY THAT YOU LIKE?
Ans : be myself
Q58.HOW WOULD YOU REACT IF THE PERSON YOU LIKE REJECTS YOU?
Ans : 3 words. life goes on.
WHAT'S THE FIRST THING THAT COMES TO YOUR MIND AT THE WORD ____ ?
Q59. fuck
Ans: hmm..
Q60: SOCCER
Ans: mi too!
Q61: ACTOR
Ans: filthy rich good looking people
Q62: MOVIE
Ans: i wanna watch!
oh no...i feel like a photocopying machine...hehz marie~
there's just some days when you feel the extreme urge to just bite off everyone's head. so they won't talk. or complain. or give silly -- plain damn silly looks. silly and irritating. there's also some days when you feel urge to keep yourself away from everyone capable of conversation, ie anyone...
today's one of those days. friday didnt' seem like a friday today. god, i sound like some kinda tongue twister. today seemed extremely long, though it's supposed to be a short day and a friday..oh well. i wasn't the only one( laz time i checked, xinyin, jess were moody), so i guess it was just one of those days.anyways, actually went to school feeling alright, but gradually went downhill. seriously i think it was after rachel called me a glutton. argh. eyes feeling horrid today. wenlin was irritating..(i think it's just me). answered a mesage after the person's gone(probably just)...what else is there?! gonna feel even worse cause there's red cross tomorrow. some kinda cca recruitment exercise. SO not looking forward to it.
i'm sooooooooooooooooooo bored.!!!!!!! oh. reading romeo and juliet again. i like that story. though now not as much, after going in depth and all, but still...
was thinking since i'm so bored...hmm..
My only love sprung from my only hate!
Too early seen unknown, and known too late!
Prodigious birth of love it is to me,
That I must love a loathed enemy - Juliet
eyes feeling hot today. don't feel like writing now. shall see later.
feeling a horrid headache coming on. shan't write. contemplating why i do this.
gonna try writing an extremely loong blog today. feel so much like it.
ok, so i dunno where to start. i guess i should start with what's happened today, which wasn't much, frankly.
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argh, still dunno what to do with my time.
oh well. had the absolute worst day of the year yesterday. everything seemed to go wrong. for me at least. got up early coz there were books in the red cross room to be taken. my hair sucked, and sooo much time was spent trying to tie it up decently(snipping it off seemed a better idea at that time). so off i was, rushing off to catch the bus, getting wet by the small drizzle. argh, i hate drizzles. was about to board the bus when i realised i didn't have my card with me. worst was that i didn't have any coins with me. Thank God there was muihoon. was about to ask her some coins when kelly sprang out of nowhere and scared me. hah. got coins from her instead. then suddenly she became my "pal" as we walked to school together. how sweet. erk. got spotted by like, half the school too. arrived in class(finally), then realised the rest had gone down. prayed that they remembered me.(thankfully, they did.) my hair continued to suck, and i was late for class for 'most every lesson, teachers were picking on me, forgot my books.... and as if that wasn't enough, big fat joyce had to shout my name out in front of the teacher with only bad news - ms ng. damn her. so i got called down. hair, shirt, ear, skirt. all caught. all unacceptable. double damn. oh, and my contacts were irritating the hell outta me. real lotta things happened, considering monday's a pretty short day.
my day sucked to the core, but night was surprisingly well. nice, fun, good. sur-pri-sing-ly.
went for a karaoke session with ningzi, yulun, xinyin, and erin. edwin was working there too, so we had the added benefit of hearing him sing(!!). i know it's a school day and all, but it is ning's birthday after all. sang songs, and did whatever we usually did went we went singing. edwin kinda had something small planned for ning, but hey, it's the thought that counts eh? it was kinda hard trying to mantain a straight face when she told us edwin was behaving strangly. so a cake was brought in at midnight, with the real crappy birthday song(the one that repeats itself oh so many times, increasing in tempo each time)(in different languages too) blasting. he sang a birthday song for 'lil miss sweet sixteen, which she was so touched by. quite a no. of people called to wish her, and we pretty much went home after that. it was abt then that we realised that we were the only ones left in the place, and probably had been for quite a while(it was a monday after all.)
i guess ning was really happy yesterday, and i'm glad. really i am. it's nice to see that.
lengthy enough? i'm not done...
soo, today. today was just another boring day. had our first geography lesson today. ismail was dressed to the nines, like a brinjal(?), different shades of purple(omg~). appeared suddenly without warning. the whole class was pretty much shocked. i guess it's really because we really couldn't see her behind those walls(hehe). crapped the whole lesson through bout shengyang's name and the importance of the power of words. the rest of the day was just, bo-ring. peishi and the rest of 'em went to get ning's cake(s)(!!) after school and we went through her presents. i kinda envy her, she had like, sooo many presents(probably what i'll have in 4 years combined). i mean, she seems to always celebrate her birthday happily...
i kinda don't like birthdays. my own. it seems like everyone will be expecting you to do something, and all focus will be on you, and you can't say no and stuff... getting kinda depressed....but i digress. so we were ransacking her presents when xingwen shoved(kinda) something to ning. apparently it was a present(necklace in a black box)(the box's from the school!). funny, he was. i guess he was debating whether to give her the present or not, coz he was kinda pacing around the room. come to think of it, he was rather not like himself. heh. cakes arrive, cakes devoured..
went to kfc's after that. jieying and the rest went first, and i was kinda, er, i dunno surprised that xiaoying didn't choose a seat near them. oh well. guess there wasn't enough space. crapped more after that. bought my dye at guardian's when ning and xinyin went to buy their files. stayed a while at mos burger with xinyin n ning. talked, mostly 'bout ning stuff. shortly before we left, ning told me that i was a nice person. not exactly like that, but the meaning was similar. *happy smile* oh well. it's nice to know somebody think's something of you, helps a great deal when you're beginning to feel a 'lil insignificant.
well, guess i didnt need to write what i was planning to after all. feels long enough.heh.
ciao,
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
it seemed like everybody was not free today, having called like hundreds of people in a row. everyone was either out or doing something else or at work. so there i was, preparing to ease myself for another boring day at home, when i got called. out. oh well. so off i went. bought a new pencil box, webby kinda stuff. bought huimin's bdae prezzie too. went back home after that. realised i forgot to buy important book stuff for school the next morning, so had to get out(again) and buy them. bought 2 hardM-cover notebooks, a pen, and 2 pairs of socks. oh yeah, bought xinyin's geography workbook for her too.
so it seems my "boring day at home" turned out to be something else. rather interesting turn of events.
gone(for now), gonna do my page up
argh, still can't find my cd. wonder where it went. beginning to become irritating. oh well. hope i find it soon. reallly really wanna play it.
anyways, went to school for red cross today. same old boring day. did preparations for the recruitment exercise though. time passed extremely slow today. bought my comb(at last!) after that. had lunch at mos burger. got a lil' irritated coz i only got to eat my burger after it got cold. yu-ck. and because they got me the wrong burger. didn't matter though.
wanted to go home after that though they suggested going to jess's house. don't know why exactly. big mistake. regretted the moment i opened the door. guess who's back. oh man. life in hell officially starts soon. goddamn. hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it.
finally got the talentime audition pieces on the com. gonna upload it soon(i hope).
for now,
x
went to yeeleng's house after school today. had fried rice(haha) for lunch. loads of it. crapped 'bout lotta silly stuff, talked bad bout people, mimicked other people, you know, the works. had fun. tried to a class t-shirts design up, but i guess it aint going that well. oh well. have a basic idea for the class noticeboard now(doors and lights and eyes and spiders)(think the shining)
had our very first maths lesson of the year just before school ended. we were banded(again) and *surprise surprise*, im in hte last class. with disgusting people. so there. maths was never fun in the past anyway. mrs/mdm(?) teng was our maths teacher.
wanted to play a game but can't find the cd. gonna go home and sleep now i guess. sleep's good.
tataz,
xxx
tired. the first day of school today. pretty much a boring day. very boring day. anyways, nothing much happened today so i guess i should just forget it and not write anything.
but i'm gonna.
edwin came by after school. qingfeng talked to me like i wasn't a stranger after school.(!!!!!) oh well.
gonez,
xOx
ps: gonna try to make a wishlist, songs/words of the moment and add to my previous sidebars soon. oh yea,,have to burn jeff's and the 8 mile soundtrack soon too.
officially am in love with legolas. and middle earth. oh man, i sense an obsession brewing. hah. school officially starts tomorrow. dreading the moment -totally, though it means i'm gonna see someone on a regular basis(argh, who am i kidding?)..
haven't been blogging for quite some time now. most probably cause of work and stuff. haven't been online much too. haven't been doing anything much but work recently.
went out during new year's eve yesterday. celebrated yulun's birthday as well. had steamboat, at marina(alllll the way there for food(the things we do for food and friendship..oh~)). cost 13 bucks per person, a la buffet style. ate mostly meat and crabmeat(the packaged sort) and prawns. yes prawns! plenty of 'em. fried, boiled, you name it, we had it. had beer too(again). oh well. it seems now that holidays have become drinking days. *read an article couple of hours ago 'bout binge-drinking that has gotten me worried. so there. mi n weishan were the only ones that actually had our own beer mugs( the rest were just plain irritating bout it). she got groggy after one cup(i guess). whether it was real or not, oh well, who knows? who cares? was supposed to make our way to orchard for the countdown, but the idea of going to melissa's house for mahjong without the guys(denise, gary, wadever) was too appealing. went to her house instead. met up with sally and jovina. the rest of the peeps came around after midnight(after the 4 of us' frantic new year calls to other peeps (what? i'm lacking in adjectives.). drank more.
reached home at about 3+. proceeded to prepare for bed, which i so promptly fell into soon after.
gonez now.
xXx
