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Til I Get Over You
Michelle Branch
Everytime I feel alone
I can blame it on you
And I do, oh
You got me like a loaded gun
Golden sun and sky so blue
We both know that we want it
But we both know you left me no choice
(Chaque fols que tu ton va)
You just bring me down
(Je pretend que tu fais bein)
So I'm counting my tears 'til I get over you
Sometimes I watch the world go by
I wonder what it's like
To wake up every single day
Smile on your face
You never tried
We both know we can't change it
But we both know we'll just have to face it
If only I could give you up
But would I want to let you off of this soapbox baby?
We both know that we want it
But we both know you left me no choice
We both know that I'm not over you
I'm not over you
A letter by an young girl to her mom
Dear Mom,
I know I haven't written for three months, but I have been very busy
and I've been having a very exciting time.
Actually, I'm just back from the hospital, where I had spent a
fortnight about two months ago.
It was nothing,really - just a concussion on the back of my head, a
broken leg and a hairline fracture, that I got while jumping out
of the second floor of my hostel when it caught fire.
In fact, I can now stand tall by myself without crutches, and can
almost see everything perfectly, except for a slight blur. But
don't worry.
The doctor says there is a good chance of me walking on my own again.
Actually, it could have been worse, if not for that nice chai-walla
who saw me lying there in a dead faint and rushed me to hospital. He
was very helpful, really, and came to see me everyday in the hospital.
Now that I am out of hospital, I had nowhere to go, as the hostel is
still under construction. So when he suggested that I move in with
him in his hut,I thought it was very kind of him, and agreed.
We are very much in love now,and I am sure that you and Dad will
surely like him and accept him in the family. I am sure the minor
matter that he is fourteen years older than me and that he is of a
different caste and religion, will not matter at all to broadminded
parents like you. He may be illiterate and poor, but he has a heart
of gold - really!!
Mom, you should see how he cares for both of us - me and his wife,
that is. She is quite sweet too, and so are her three children;
so there is absolutely no problem. You must be wondering how you and
Dad got informed so late. Don't get angry, Mom. We just didn't
have the time. You see, we decided to get married only recently since
we thought it would be unfair to let our baby into the world without
a proper surname. Yes, Mom, you are going to be a grandmother!!
Congratulations! I am sure you and Dad are delighted, and will come
to visit us in his village in Mizoram after we shift there next week.
OK Mom. All this did not really happen. There was no fire, no
fracture, no bigamous chai-walla and no illegitimate pregnancy.
But I did flunk in my Mathematics exam, and I wanted you to view
this problem in the right perspective.
Your Darling Daughter.
life sucks.
5 consecutive days of sadness. im gonna die.
please someone make me happy.
i cant stand it.
ARGGH.
thissucksthissucksthissucksthissucks.
Backet Case
greenday
Do you have the time
To listen to me whine
About nothing and everything all at once
I am one of those
Melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone no doubt about it
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up
I think I'm cracking up
Am I just paranoid
Or am I just stoned
I went to a shrink
To analyze my dreams
She says it's lack of sex
That's bringing me down
I went to a whore
He said my life's a bore
So quit my whining cause
It's bringing her down
Grasping to control
So I better hold on
tired.
went out with jack n co yesterday. he's gonna be going for ns soon =(. no more bbqs where i eat til i explode. but then, alrite lar jack 2 years are gonna fly by! dun worry!!
went many places yesterday. upsides of having a car. went ah gua(changi), woman(geylang lar) and ghost watching. haha. its like we were on a tour of the dark side of singapore or something. zoomed around and around and around singapore(tts how small it is). ate and ate and ate too. i tink im 5 kilos fatter. feeling kinda bad for not paying for anything =x.
nice new experience for jack i suppose, this guy/girl flirting with him. enjoying it?? =x
reached home at almost 6 and slept the way through until some idiot messaged me.
darn tired.
but im gonna play aoe! ahah
"Alas! they had been friends in youth:
But whispering tongues can poison truth;
And constancy lives in realms above;
And life is thorny; and youth is vain;
And to be wroth with one we love,
Doth work like madness in the brain;
________
But never either found another
To free the hollow heart from paining -
They stood aloof, the scars remaining.
Like cliffs which had been rent asunder;
A dreary sea now flows between,
But neither heat, nor frost, nor thunder,
Shall wholly do away, I ween,
The marks of that which once hath been."
Coleridge, Christabel
nobody is who they seem to be. everytime your think you have someone figured out they turn out to be something else. every single friggin' time you fstart to feel something good is about to happen it always turns out to be a different way.
but this is my life, i'll admit that.
there is no way things can go well for me. everything HAS to go wrong. there's just no way about it. misunderstandings, miscommunication, misintepretation - whatever.
im just so sick of it.
ive decided that i like the new blog layout. when im feeling fine lah. hurhur. its just so clean and nice and neat! so like me =x hahahaha alright alright so UNlike me.
hey but im clean!
okie dokie aoe time! :D
check out the nick berg beheading video here. not for the fainthearted. damn disgusting.
another one of those bad days. woke up feeling quite alright. felt kinda excited acytally - it was gonna be the first time i wore my shoes. pretty laxed day, having only a few lessons and all. but there's always a huge fat BUT at the end of it all.
pe sucked. the fucking teacher was serious bout making us run the 2.4 again. tot the bloody bitch who made all of this happen, FUCK U. anyway, kinda peeved the other girls ran even though we agreed not to the other day. but oh well, dont blame them. its my choice to be pissy and not fun.
then the stupid thing with the gp tutor happened. im not even gonna retell what happend - tts just how stupid/lame/annoying it was. the whole fucking school can just think im this defiant piece of #&*^(*. i dont care. i just wanna say that im NOT making a statement, im NOT tryin to prove a point. i just DONT like it when people take a dig at my character. u dont fuckin judge me based on impressions. whatever man. i dont wanna talk anymore bout it. its jus unnecessary. another thing, it takes things like this to happen before i realise alotta things around me.
i dont wanna talk about it.
check out the troy trailer
the troy webbie is damn cool too.
lets see...nothing much up in my life. school, eat, work, sleep. the works, or rather, lack of sleep. oh! and i joined netball. tink i sucked on thurs. ugh.
wednesday was a BAD day. lousy day. stupid day. NOT a good day. argh. should have stayed in bed. everything that can go wrong...went wrong. damn. it started with not waking up and the list jus goes on and on and on and on...i:
- couldnt wake up
- had the baddest of all bad hair days
- had mom pissin me off the minute i woke
at this point things were just normal. i mean, i didnt fall on my face on my way to school or anything like that. just when i thought my bad luck was over i:
- realised i didnt bring my tie
- lost/misplaced my production notes
- did not get to eat tom yam i so urged the whole friggin day cause it was closed
- forgot to bring my ez-link card afterwards cause i left it in my bag
- almost couldnt buy temp card cuz i didnt have cash.
met up with val n erin after that fer dinner. had fun. havent seen both of em in a while..crapped, had a duper late dinner, took photos and caused the people working there to not be able to knock off, went pooling. sucked at pool ahhaa. dont know what happened seriously. but then again....wasnt as bad as someone =x. haha. then we went to this place called alley bar and boozed. emptied my wallet on a very expensive glass of long island PLUS the cab fare home. =( nice cozy environment, not very smokey.. thumbs up! ahah. talked to em fer quite awhile. said many things i dont usually tell people. wondering why i did anyway - im not into the whole tell people bout myself thing.
it might be the booze.
Chocolate Personality..
Your choice of your chocolate centre??
How you like your chocolate centre reveals your personality.
1) almond
2) coffee
3) strawberry
4) marshmallow
5) peppermint
ALMOND
Climbing the almond tree of prosperity, you desire success and you like to celebrate your achievements. You have a quickness of mind that can stagger your friends. You can change your conversation or your beliefs very rapidly. You love making changes to yourself, because there are so many thoughts in your head. You like to offer a hand in friendship and are keen to help others.
Excess: You can appear flippant to people who do not know you. You have the best of intentions, but some people just don't want to be changed, so stop trying. You may rely on helping hands from others when you could do something yourself.
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COFFEE
As a coffee person, you're not one to be kept waiting or standing in line. You like everything at once, and why not? You are a deep thinker and like the buzz of discussion and debate. After all, this is why coffee and chocolate houses came into being. Your mind is like a parachute - it works best when open.
Excess: Living on a caffeine fix, nervous energy, prone to addictions. You can be impatient and throw tantrums when things don't go your way. You always look busy, but what are you achieving?
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STRAWBERRY
You're a loving and caring person. In touch with your intuition, you listen to other people's problems with compassion and tenderness. You have or will find time for people and you believe that things will turn out all right in the end. A romantic and an idealist at heart, you have lots of unconditional love for yourself and for others. Music can play a large part art in your life.
Excess: Disappointments in love not being returned. Sensitivity to others can leave you drained of energy. The need to love at any cost means you can be living through others, seeing the world through rose-coloured glasses.
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MARSHMALLOWA
As a person who likes marshmallow, you're very social. You like to party, to have people around you. Light and fluffy, you can move from one idea or subject to the next, without a great deal of though. If you choose pink marshmallow, you're in love with romantic and very optimistic. White marshmallow denotes clarity for that moment in time.
Excess: You can get bored very quickly. Tend to agree with whomever you are talking to at the time, no matter what you believe in. Not a lot of follow-through on ideas that you come up with. The need for romance, for clarity.
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PEPPERMINT
All things are possible to peppermint lovers; you have all the scope of life to choose from. You tend to see life as moving on - tomorrow is another day. You're very clear on what you're doing, whether it be in matters of the heart of in your profession. You're full of ideas and won't be bound by rules unless you've made them. You're always striving for things to be better, looking ahead with an open mind.
Excess: The need for all the above. Being able to let go and trust your inner center. Suffering from the past is clouding your judgment of the here and now.
homecoming day. one word - boring. the stalls are pathetic, the games so..ugh. i guess these being somebody else's hard work i shouldnt be going around saying bad stuff and all but..........reached school at around 12 and got bored of the whole damn carnival before the clock struck 1. continued being bored in school until 4. the dunking machines were kinda the only thing i was even remotely interested in. *yawnz* then, giving in to our(me, marg, ws n yy) urges we ran off and played volleyball/badminton til late. now that was fun.
last wednesday. drama meeting. one word - boring. the activities were pathetic, the games so..rough. spent the entire day trying not to yawn in front of the people(see i HAVE manners after all). tried pretending to be actively participating in the activities until even that became too difficult to manage. then i dragged myself down to the old canteen for a (very rough) game of captain's ball. i seriously DO mean theyre rough man...some girl even injured my..ahem hoo hoos. =x. anyway, its been awhile since i last played any team sport of any kind and...I MISSED IT. especially netball man. so ive decided - im gonna join netball after all.
wish me luck =D.
And the cold hand of death
Chills his shuddering breath,
And he lists to the fearful lay
Which the ghosts of the sky,
As they sweep wildly by,
Sing to departed day.
And they sing of the hour
When the stern fates had power
To resolve Rosa´s form to its clay.
i dunno why some people have the misconception that i love maths. i DO NOT like maths. maths is...ugh. me and maths dont go together. YUCK! i get chills just thinkin bout it. anyway, talking bout it brings me to another thing...
ive changed. not in the whole big scary change kinda change, but a subtle teeny itsy change. ok maybe not so small a change but.. i dunno if anybody's realise it but...im starting to do my homework. ahahha i pack my bag..i have a decent file to put my things, i actually bring books to school(instead of just leaving them in school)(but then again there's nowhere in school now fer me to leave my books at), i dont sleep in class yada yada
(i can picture jac's or xiaoying's eyebrows going up at this point and sayin "what the heck..?")
anyway u get my meaning. i suppose its a good thing, but it makes me feel so..soo nerdish. im just not used to(yet) being like that. add my behavior to my hair and you'll get no traces of my past. hee.
willy wonka went to town, riding on his pony
willy wonka very happy eating marcaroni
willy willy willy wonka willy willy wonka
willy willy willy wonka willy willy wonka!
miss those days. cheers to 4/3'03!!!!!!
