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WTH?!
ok i shouldnt have listened to ANY of u when u ask me to read your blogs ANYMORE.
haha but since i'm bored...
WHO THE HELL STARTED THIS GAME ANYWAY?!
so im supposed to do 10 huh?
Here's the game
Introduce 5 quirks or idiosyncrasies of yours on your blog, following which you are free to pick up five more people to do the same thing.
1.i am really loud. seriously. in your face loud. and obnoxious.
2. i am a serial straw stealer.
3.i hate days.
4.i er..get frequent sudden obsessions/cravings
5.i cannot live without touch. (im a very touchy touchy person :) )
6.i can talk about 5 things simultaneously.
7. i have a short attention span. i bore easily.
8.im so lazy i'll rather die than go out and buy food :X
9.i have a fetish for people's necks, shoulders and lips :)
10.im so yours if u do it right :X (think innocent ppl! *shakes head*)
OK THERE. im done. so now i'll pick.........
1. xinyin
2. jac
3. YOU! (u noe who im talkin about :) )
4. MARIE
5. jieying
Lust is to the other passions what the nervous fluid is to life; it supports them all, lends strength to them all ambition, cruelty, avarice, revenge, are all founded on lust.
need gratification asap.
i was just really bored so ive decided to defame some random friendster guy.
so some guy messaged me the other day:
Can you give me your hp number?
You have bf, can i be your gf?
Tell me wat is your age?
My age is 18 year old?
which i obviously ignored. (ps i hate dickheads like that)
so he obviously did NOT get the hint and sent another:
Can you give m your hotmail?
Can you give me your hp number?
You have gf, can i be your gf?
WTF man dont u like..have a life or somethin?
and then:
Can you give me your hp number?
Can you be my gf, you have bf in your school?
You all break your bf already?
not only is he mentally retarded, but also sexually confused. the the dickhead even had MY pic on his profile. that wanker.
so i told him to get the fuck away from me and to remove my pic .
which he did.
and now i want to ruin his (online) life.
so people, pop down his site once in a while to see what other poor girls this weirdo has his eyes on.
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=14856373
Come, you spirits
That tend on mortal thoughts, unsex me here;
And fill me, from the crown to the toe, top-full
Of direst cruelty! make thick my blood,
Stop up the access and passage to remorse,
That no compunctious visitings of nature
Shake my fell purpose, nor keep peace between
The effect and it! Come to my woman's breasts,
And take my milk for gall, your murdering ministers,
Wherever in your sightless substances
You wait on nature's mischief! Come, thick night,
And pall thee in the dunnest smoke of hell
That my keen knife see not the wound it makes
Nor heaven peep through the blanket of the dark
To cry, "Hold, hold!"
-lady macbeth
their fruits like honey in the throat, but poison in the blood
shall I abide
In this dull world, which in thy absence is
No better than a sty? O! see my women, [ANTONY dies.
The crown o’ the earth doth melt. My lord!
O! wither’d is the garland of the war,
The soldier’s pole is fall’n; young boys and girls
Are level now with men; the odds is gone,
And there is nothing left remarkable
Beneath the visiting moon.
-anthony and cleopatra
yes, the marquis' words does sound so true sometimes. art should be given the space to breathe at whatever the cost. art has no morals, no social conventions; art should live for arts' sake. the artist only can provide the key with his works - its up to the indivual mind as to what he does with the piece. literature is, after all, literature. art, is art.
the play really does give off some confusing messages. if the above were true, then wouldnt the play's progression as it had contradict what the marquis has been trying to put forth all the while? all the madness and chaos, ironically at the asylum, all the stirring of the blood by the marquis' controversial, disturbing works...
art does affect the individual. we come to the most fundamental question - how much is too much? is it too much when the subject matter at hand is gory? disturbing? particularly unsettling? then why have it at all? wouldnt the world seem flat if there were only happy art. life is multisided, as with art. should we leave out the bad and write only of the good? wouldnt that be an irony? why is it that a depiction of the horrors of mankind in art considered sick when there are people out there who do horrors of a thousandfold being applauded by it? what makes fiction sick when real life often is... not?
does art affect the individual, cause him to do grievious wrongs like the inmates of the charenton have, or does it bring out the deeper, primal creature in all of us? do we get influenced by our art, or is the art merely a reflection of our inner selves? is it innate in us to plunder and pillage, to hunt and kill, to prey and conquer?
is it wrong to write something u believe in, foolish to suffer for art's sake?
are the words of a raving madman the only truth we can ever hope to hear? it certainly seems so, if the characters in the play are anything to judge by. even the abbe falls - the sole representation of the pure and divine - and falls he does. he is the perfect example of a victim to social and moral restraints; the very restraints he's put himself into causing his ultimate downfall. the marquis however, stands by his ideals, not swayed by reason, not intimidated by rules and convention. he dies the same man he was, tortured in body but not in soul, as have the abbe. then should we see him as a hero?
the director can always choose a way to portray certain events in a way that enlightens her audience as to the message she wants to put forth. and so the phantasy scene of the abbe - what of it? the message that there is no god? that god is the devil in disguise? the necrophilic act that condemns the holy man as a final show of irony? what is the message? what is the director trying to say?
i dont know. i told u im confused by the play. it brings out so many questions i wanna ask and i wanna explode cause there is NOBODY to discuss it with.
saw wen's post and well..im bored too. HAHA such loseristic behavior.
( )Napoleon Dynamite
( )Saw
( )White Noise
( i wish i had :( )White Oleander
( )Anger Management
(x)50 First Dates
()Jason X
(x)Scream
(x)Scream 2
(x)Scream 3
(x)Scary Movie
(x)Scary Movie 2
(x)Scary Movie 3
( )American Pie
( )American Pie 2
( )American Wedding
(x)Harry Potter
(x)Harry Potter 2
(its around this time i found it quite a loser show. sorry guys)Harry Potter 3
(x)Resident Evil 1
(x)Resident Evil 2
(x)The Wedding Singer
( )Little Black Book
( )The Village
( )Donnie Darko
(x)Lilo & Stitch
(x)Finding Nemo
(x)Finding Neverland
(x) 13 ghosts
(x) Signs
( )The Grinch
( )Texas Chainsaw Massacre (the ORIGINAL version)
(x)White Chicks
( )Butterfly Effect
( )13 going on 30
( )I Robot
( )Dodge ball
(x)Universal Soldier
(x)A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( )Along Came A Spider
(x)Deep impact
( )KingPin
(x)Never Been Kissed
(x)Meet The Parents
( )Meet The Fockers
( )Eight Crazy Nights
( )A Cinderella Story
(x)The Terminal
( YUCK of COS NOT)The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( )Passport to Paris
(x)Dumb & Dumber
( )Dumb & Dumberer
(x)Final Destination
(x)Final Destination 2
( )Halloween
(x)The Ring
( )The Ring 2
( )Harold & Kumar (white castle)
(x)Practical Magic
(x)Chicago
(x)Ghost Ship
(x)From Hell
( )Hellboy
( )Secret Window
(x)I Am Sam
( )The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x)Bride of Chucky
(x)Ten Things I Hate About You
(x)Just Married
( )Gothika
(x)A Nightmare on Elm Street
( )Sixteen Candles
( )Bad Boys 2
( )Joy Ride
(x)Seven
(x)Oceans Eleven
(x)Oceans Twelve
( )Identity
( )Lone Star
( )Bedazzled
( )Predator I
( )Predator II
(x)Independence Day
(x)Cujo
( )A Bronx Tale
(x)Darkness Falls
(x)Christine
(x) ET
(x)Children of the Corn
( )My boss' daughter
( )Maid in Manhattan
( )Frailty
( )Best bet
(x)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x)She's All That
( )Calendar Girls
( )Sideways
( )Mars Attacks
(x GOOD SHOW)Event Horizon
( )Ever after
(x)Forrest Gump
( )Big Trouble in Little China
(x)X-men 1
(x)X-men 2
( )Jeepers Creepers
(x)Jeepers Creepers 2
(x)Catch Me If You Can
(x)The Others
(x)Freaky Friday
( )Reign of Fire
(x)Cruel Intentions
(x)The Hot Chick
( )Swimfan
( )Miracle
( )Old School
( )Ray
( )The Notebook
( )K-Pax
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x)A Walk to Remember
( )Boogeyman
( )Hitch
(x)The Fifth Element
(x)Star wars episode I
(x)Star wars episode II
(x)Starwars episode IV
(x)Star wars episode V
(x)Star wars episode VI
( )Troop Beverly Hills
( )Swimming with Sharks
( )Trainspotting
( )The Patriot
( )People under the stairs
( )Blue Velvet
(x)Sound of music
(x)Parent Trap
( )The Burbs
( )SLC Punk
(x)Meet Joe Black
( )Wild girls
( )A Clockwork Orange
( )The Order
(x)Spiderman
(x)Spiderman 2
(x)Amelie
(x)Mean Girls
(x)Shrek
(x)Shrek 2
( )The Incredibles
( )Collateral
( )The Fast & The Furious
( )2 Fast 2 Furious
( )Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
(x)Closer
(x)The Sixth Sense
(x)Artificial Intelligence
(x)Love actually
( )Shutter
( )Ella Enchanted
(x)Princess Diaries 1
( )Princess Diaries 2
( )Constantine
(x)Million Dollar Baby
( )Envy
( )Eurotrip
( )Malibu's Most wanted
(x)Big Daddy
( )Black Sheep
( )The Breakfast Club
(x)American Beauty
( )Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
( )The Big Kahuna
(x)Dude, Where's My Car?
( )Dirty Dancing
( )Garden State
(x)Grease
(x)The Italian Job
I have :
(x) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar-Cheap Thrill
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love
( ) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of my livejournal friends
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) thrown up in a bar/club
(x i was young.) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(x) met someone in person from the internet
(x) been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship ((There are many ways people can abuse you...))
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
( ) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
(x) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(does running on my legs count? :X ) ran a red light
( almost ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) hated the way i look
(x) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x yes, darn u mrs teo) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried myself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something i told myrself i wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls when i was younger
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose
( ) caught a snowflake on my tongue
(x) danced in the rain
( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) watched the sun rise with someone i care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
( ) gone rollerblading
(x) had a wish come true-
( what kinda sick fuck does that?! ) humped a monkey
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed penis in public
(x) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger i loved them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
( ) have a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sex's clothes
( ) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 4 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
(x RAMBUTAN COUNT? ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x ) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies
( ) believe in ghosts
( ) have more than 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) played ding-dong
( ) played chicken
( ) pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're beautiful by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish then ate it
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
( ) flashed someone
( ) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x OOPS) had a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone's name?
( ) slept naked
(x) French braided someone's hair
( ) grown a beard
tit·il·late
v. tit·il·lat·ed, tit·il·lat·ing, tit·il·lates
v. tr.
To stimulate by touching lightly; tickle.
To excite (another) pleasurably, superficially or erotically.
v. intr.
To excite another, especially in a superficial, pleasurable manner: “Once you decide to titillate instead of illuminate... you create a climate of expectation that requires a higher and higher level of intensity” (Bill Moyers).
She moves like she don't care
Smooth as silk, cool as air
Ooh it makes you wanna cry
She doesn't know your name
And your heart beats like a subway train
Ooh it makes you wanna die
Ooh, don't you wanna break her?
Ooh, don't you wanna take her home?
- blondie, maria
im so ODing on the 2046 soundtrack and i dont care if it makes me sound like a nerd but i LOVE it to bits and its playin in loops on my player and im sure my mom cant take much more of it :)
ITS GREAT.
my fingers running through your hair, down your neck, trailing a path that leads me to heaven. the spot of light peeking through the blinds, i see your eyes illuminated, beautiful. my angel i think, as i kiss your lips, your eyes, everywhere that i can, anywhere that i want.
whisper into my ear love, make me shiver, make my spine tingle. speak to my heart, make it beat, make it red, make it pump sweet love into my veins. speak to me love, tell me what you want, tell me what you need and i'll conjure a thousand things to fulfil your every desire.
all the million doors fade away - in that moment i have you, and you alone as you do me.
been on a show watching rampage these few days.
watched requiem for a dream, sin city, 2046, closer, stealth, kinsey and lost and delirious.
u see lost and delirious? i dont get it. its confusing.
i LOVED sin city.
and i shall continue on my rampage.
you dont know what a bitch of a time i had trying to outline my mannequin. well here's an amateur for you. that was before i found magnetic lasso. damn my timing.
today is photoshop day! i LOVE it to bits and pieces.
she looks on out at the world through the looking glass that confines her, green with envy.
I try but I'm not convincing
Your lips, they pout and twist,
and I die trying just to keep myself from kissing you.
You take in everything with a certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need
Just keep me guessing please
- the tension and the terror, straylight run
we hide in our shells. to protect us, to keep us from harm's way. with every word uttered our shells are slowly pried away, and with every step we take, we fear, that one day our shells would all be taken away from us, and we are left there, lying naked, and vulnerable, for the whole world to see.
we stand behind a wall to hide ourselves. shield us from the cross fire. everything that is done drives the bulldozer closer, the roar of the engine loud, intimidating, frightening. it reminds us of what is to come, the pillage - the destruction of the wall - our wall, our time to stand before the village of the walless, where everyone thrives from the openess of their hearts. condemned, confused, we stand before them, yearning for the wall that used to stand - our pillar of hope, our pillar of strength, our pillar of life.
we hide in the jungles of confusion, dress ourselves like savages who belong there. we hide from the world. in our tattered rags and crude weapons we feign to be foreign, different from the others. we seek isolation, concealment, and what utimately would be protection from the world that we know it, cannibals in designer rags and concealed smiles of malicious intent. do we grow weary from our lives of pretense? pretense is survival, it is the key that locks us out from the hunters - men driven mad with hunger for fresh blood; for blood to contaminate; for blood to pollute; for blood to put into vials, vials upon vials on the trophy cabinet. vials to prove that "i have conquered".
stole this from my dar's lecture notes. heh.
Love Relationships
Liking – a desire to interact with a person
Loving – far more complicated, intimate, often including passion, romance, companionship, infatuation and sexual attraction.
Kinds of Love
? Passionate (or romantic) love:
is an intensely emotional state and a confusion of feelings: tenderness, sexuality, elation and pain, anxiety and relief, altruism and jealousy.
? Companionate love:
is a less intense emotion, combining feelings of friendly affection and deep attachment.
6 Types of Love
Eros: Passionate love. All consuming & physical
Storge: Companionate. Companionship
Ludus: Game playing. Love to win, short term
Mania: Possessive love. Intense, jealous obsession
Pragma: Logical love. Considered and compatible
Agape: Selfless love. Unconditional
Three factor theory of love
Three variables underlie the experience of love:
Easily confused with arousal related to fear, anger , joy, and sexual arousal.
Social matching Accounts for the way people are attracted to partners of approximately the same level of social desirability.
Love is contained by incest taboos and unavailability judgements regarding those already in relationships.
Variables linked to marital stability and satisfaction – education, employment, supportive behaviour, sharing of social group.
Companionate love developing once romantic love recedes.
Commitment is critical.
Role complementarity requires role negotiation.
Ending A Relationship
Factors indicating the end of a relationship:
1.A new life seems to be the only solution.
2.Alternative partners are available.
3.There is an expectation that the relationship will fail.
4.There is a lack of commitment to a continuing relationship.
christina is really my first true love. :)
and i still do love her loads. with boob job and all.
i just want to brag about my TICKETS TO QUILLS!!!!!!
OMG. the trailer for memoirs of a geisha is HERE! i think zhang ziyi(oops its ziyi zhang now) cant speak english for nuts BUT looks good :) show looks good too :) :) and i think michelle yeoh's voice is sexy :) :) :)
ok till later,
xxx
watched requiem for a dream yesterday and it was pretty depressing.
watch it.
its good.
did i say depressing?
yeah it is.
sometimes, i swear i feel so loved that my heart just fills up with it. it explodes into a million tiny pieces and still it'll glow and beat. it beats for me, and more importantly, for you and everybody around me. the sweet defeaning of the crashing mulititudes my million pieced heart beats with - it is sweet symphony and we are engulfed in it.
sexy lingerie makes me feel extremely sexy ;)
okaay. so i've seen many (crappy) things today.
and i saw someone steal BREAD. well im not gonna elaborate. i video-ed it. i can be good paparazzi man. ok so here's the video( i think you'll need to right click and save target as to see it.)(angelfire doesnt remote host. so i cheated :X)
and i saw my beautiful liv tyler. im so depressed. i didnt know she had a kid. see what having kids does to you?! a whole lot of headaches and ONE HUGE ASS.
and i saw some lame guy with too much time on his hands create a story about celebrity calls. its funny though. see it here.
and this i stole from marie's blog. for all who dont visit her blog(you should. teehee.). something guys would wanna see. :X
its storming outside, the winds are howling and there's thunder and lightning everywhere.
i so wanna run out and get engulfed in the rain.
let the rain be my bride, embrace me.
run in the rain with your hands in mine.
you know, my mom said the second pic was "scary".
yes, well even the holiest places can be.
i think jessica alba is attached. no she's engaged. to this horrid species of a man. its terrifying.
omg WHY~?!
im depressed.
not just cause she's engaged, but to a horrid species of a man.
just LOOK AT THAT.
i have nothing against her getting engaged and all but..to THAT thing?! c'mon u gotta be bullshitting me.
i bet she can choose any guy she wants and she chose this?!
the world is coming to an end.
i dont like my dreams.
it eats into my brainspace, gets stuck in there.
and then it becomes too close for comfort.
it distorts reality.
it makes us think too much for our own good.
makes us fail to see what's truly in front of us; we are too caught up.
while we're at it, i dont like the feeling of rejection too.
i dont like exams.
i dont like econs.
i dont like missing half of lit paper cause i cant fuckin wake up.
and i dont like it that you're so far away i cant touch u.
or that i cant get dr peppers here.
look at my room. just look at it. its the ATTACK OF THE NOTES!
im so lame right now and i should be studyin to im gone.
im so craving for cherry vanilla dr pepper cause this shite site i came upon described it as "immaculate ejaculate".
and i dont know where to fuckin get it.
so i shall be gone.
there was all the fitful fever
of the blood, the jealous madness
of the brain: his heart seemed to bleed
with anguish, while his longing dropped
broken, imperfect accents of woe.
my beautiful beatyfuuuuuuuuuuuuul kahlen. sweet isnt she? whoa *faints*
im just so sick of your face already. im tired of trying and trying and always finding ourselves at the beginning. square 1. ashes to ashes, dust to dust. call me a manipulative bitch but yeah well think about where i came from.
mi·sog·y·nist
Pronunciation: m&-'säj-&-n&st
Function: noun
one who hates women—compare MISANDRIST —misogynist adjective —mi·sog·y·ny /m&-'säj-&-nE/ noun plural -nies
well i keep seeing this word around of late.
and i cant even begin to imagine anyone hating women.
it'll be the end of the world for me :/
look what dropped by my house today:
yep, after countless days of pining for it..
magic does happen.
i got my turkey bacon sandwich.
its so fuckin huge!
n i shall be content to go fail tomorrow at school.
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something
ow do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
"I'm beginning to think i forgot how the outside world look like.My only connection with the outside world are the windows in my house." - wen
well wen you're priceless. and true. man i hope i dont lose my way when i go to sch come monday :/
i really hate lit now(even though its the only subject i've ever liked) cos i know shite about jane austen and frankly, she has gotta be the most boring author in the entire history of mankind.
i think i'll never finish that book and im never gonna try to so i'll do what every sensible(and lazy) lit student does - read the summary. okay i already know what happens so i can even skip that. so i guess study for lit...check.
well that is if i actually KNOW how to answer the idiotic questions. they might as well set the paper in greek cause it aint makin no difference from where i come from.
an example:
"Persuasion is a conflict between the feudal element, conscious of its tradition and the rising middle class conscious of its vitality…” Discuss the novel in the light of this statement."
yeah i know. screw JA.
but this question kinda caught my eye:
"Consider Austen’s treatment of man as the weaker sex in Persuasion."
hurhur. so there. im HUNGRY AGAIN.
"Desdemona is helplessly passive. she can do nothing whatever. she cannot retaliate even in speech...is helpless because her nature is infinitely sweet and her love absolute...her suffering is like that of the most loving of dumb creatures tortured without cause by the being he adores."
WTF.
the critic must be a guy.
he might as well just say it straight up that des is a stupid cow.
ok time for me to hit the books. again. *yawns*
last bit for the day...
remember babe, i wanna * u :)
ok, no more codebreaker shit for me.
outs,
xxx
i dont know why im ALWAYS hungry nowadays. i think im getting fat. well i wouldnt know, dont have much contact with the outside world. exams suck.
anyway.
im ALWAYS hungry.
so i get all the cravings in the world like some fuckin pregnant woman.
and its DOUGHNUTS for this week.
chocolate filled, coated, sugary dougnuts.
ooooh.
some comment by some random person about eating doughnuts off misha barton only makes it more appetising.
BRING IT ON BABY!
i am being bored again.
bored is my current preoccupation.
well i was supposed to be studyin and instead of studyin i drew this:
so now i've done zilch studying.
no wait, i DID some studying, cause i drew from this:
well so much for econs then.
my room is so cluttered up with stuff right now that i'm afraid it'll attack me in the middle of the night while im sleeping. heck maybe that's y i dont sleep anymore.
and yep, im gettin closer day by day to shoving them right under my bed and forgetting all about them.
OMFG this is seriously funny guys.
trust me on this ;)
speaker ad
usin the f word
do u tell your friend?
7 INCHES LONGER!!!
ok another proof of me being very bored with my time..
i did this.
so shoot me. or tie me up to a chair so i'd study or something.
my dreams are getting more and more absurd. yeterday, in the midst of tossing and turning around i managed to dream of this gigantic turkey bacon sandwich. goodness, im salivating already. okay, anybody who brings me a turkey bacon sandwich(NOT from 7-11 thank you very much) i will be grateful to forever and ever :)
and ooh! finally a review on quills.
pop down here to have a look.
and min if u ever cancel on me i'll have your HEAD on a PLATTER. hurhur.
alrites
til later,
xxx
i rather not live.
i cant think straight.
u just wrenched out my heart and squashed it like a bug.
tell me if that's what you want.
i'll die and leave you in peace.
i hate sayin that i need pills to help me sleep but i do. im so screwed up that i do and now i feel like shite and there's nobody here to comfort me and my overheated brain cant process what's happening now its like a nightmarre, one that i've always had in the back of my mind, one that i knew would come true but refuse to face it. mayb that's why i dont sleep anymore and i need you here i need u here more so now than ever to kiss away my fears and my nightmares and tell me everythin will be alright again and that the sun will shine. but you're not here and u never will be able to and all i can hold onto are shadows of our past and even they are slowly fading away..can u tell me that tomorrow when i wake everything will be fine and dandy once more?
why have things become like that?
i cant breathe.
there's nothing i can do that is right.
i'm running on a mine field that i cant escape from.
youarekillingus.
i cant believe my fuckin luck recently cause i keep seeing red bag wherever i go. its so great man at least the school's less boring when there's something to look at..the only glitch's that she probably knows cause i happen to catch her eye these couple of days which only means a)that she's fuckin weirded out or b)she's fuckin flattered and amused but i highly doubt option b is anywhere near true though. its just wishful thinking on my part(and babe JUST wishful thinking, nothing more. yr still the one i want :)) and it'll be less weird if she's thinkin b cause i wont hafta feel awkward and like some kinda psycho stalker(which i am NOT.) anyway, saw her today AGAIN as i was walkin to the stupid school to hand up the stupid cca form cause i wasnt in school when i had to and i didnt want to have ZERO pts. walked right by her and the most incredible thing happened - she turned. well but to a)look back at me or b)the trees behind me or c)the old aunties exercising in a corner i dont know. more wishful thinking for me :). anyway so now i have someone in school who thinks im a weird psychopath. thank god i dont go to school anymore.
im feeling pretty high right now. i guess cause i ate SO bloody much at wen's place jus now i feel like my intestines can burst anytime. i think i didnt stop since we sat down for dinner til like 2am in the morning. :/ great, now im a weird psychopath AND a glutton. i love my girlies to death man. i feel like i have friends again. i need social interactions man! too little and ole grouchy me comes to stay.
oh and my blog's a nice cosy little gathering place! hurhur. people actually DO read my stuff..so i guess i should feel pretty glad i suppose. though its quite strange to have anonymouses whom i supposedly have seen more times than he has me. but then again..
oh and to enlighten my dear ole friend anonymous the original:
it is SCIENTIFICALLY proven that eating chocolates releases the same hormones as havin sex does. so there.
and while i've been very bored with my time i did this to wen(happy birthday once again and THANK YOU for a wonderful dinner. love u loads :))
i only hope time wont sue me for copyright laws or something.
i miss your voice like hot smooth wet melted chocolate
and yes when i hear your voice its like eating tons and tons of chocolate - i get high and euphoric and i dont wanna come down.
its great cause i wont get fat and i can overdose on it.
and u know, eating chocolates is like having sex.
