how did it come to this?
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
if only words could explain how i feel...........
just HATE my FUCKiNG FAMIY. fuckin hate it. hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it....ARGHHhhhhhhhhhhhhHH
so now everything has to be my fault. my fuckin fault. its always me. bad sheep. spoiled brat. fucking delinquent. everything screwed in this world has to be my fault. my responsibility. so what am i supposed to do now?! no emotions. no faults. why don;t they just get a fuckin robot for god's sakes. NOT ME. i aint perfect. nobody is. EVERYBODY else thinks they are. everybody HAS to fucking be perfect. screw me.
can't have opinions. can;'t have thoughts. can't have moods. why, ingredients for the PERFECT girl. fucking impossible. i rather u beat me dead with a stick. gotta listen to every fuckin' word that comes my way. what do you take me as? some kinda couseller? some kinda freakin' chat hotline?! i dont wanna listen. yet i can;t. so now im wrong. just for not wanting to listen to no CRAP. you don wanna listen to me spouting MY "nonsense"...yet i gotta listen to you spout yours. yo-u dont even listen to your fucking self. you just love the sound of your voice toomuch...you dont fucking care wad u sae. what kinda fucking law is that. equality? bullshit. dictative. i dont care. i dont wanna care. i'll explode if i hafta listen to all ya crap everyday. i need release. i yearn for release. i dont get no fucking release.
i aint stupid. im mad. fuckin furious. i jsut fucking wanna kill all of them. so much you'll never understand. ARGHH. if i just had a knife....
godamn i'll makethem understand. one day when all breaks loose i'll make them understand. then they'll cower in fear of what will come...and i'll fucking make them understand all that they put me through all these years.
