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heh. ahh...pretty well balanced..duncha think eh?
my birthday will officially come to an end in around....1 hr 20 mins.
the day sucked, as of other birthday days. never really thought about it, but it seems every year a week before my birthday i get reaaally depressed. anyway i was nursing a case of the norm birthday blues. went to school feeling pretty fine, if not a little late. woke up with this horrible bad hair that i had to tamp down with lots of oil. had to stretch socks all day long in order not to get caught. spilled sodium bromate all over my uniform....had extremely off results for titration. it did NOT help that it was SO hot. went for red cross with jac n jo after getting abandoned by lots of people.... so we waited in the room for hours, they said the whole thing's cancelled. i guess it was the combination of going for red cross on a birthday, having to go to red cross after almost everybody else's not, and the case of the blues that made me feel reeeeal low. i mean, it got so bad i was contemplating just hiding in my room and sleeping and not answering the door if anybody comes.
the day progressively became better once i reached home. hastily helped mom with the preparations. felt (still do) a little guilty bout having to have her do so much work...but well. we basically ate, crapped, and did whatever one does at a erm..small birthday gathering.
i guess the low point of the entire thing was the point of time when my mother exclaimed that i should take photos with my dog before i dont get the chance to anymore. damn her. y cant she just...shut UP. didnt pay much heed, though my mood has indeed been affected.
high point? hehe =x *silly grin*
oh well.
Happy Birthday to Me,
Happy Birthday to Me,
Happy Birthday to Me...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
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ok..so the com has been restarted. want to talk more to make up for lost time. anyways, found the title of the game i saw in a mag. looks pretty good...am now looking for the game itself. here's the review from amazon. cant wait!!
so it looks like fatz n ning's singing bit is coming up with some problems. ah well, what do you expect, really? school stuff are just...well lame. gonna offer my bit of support nevertheless, cause they're gonna be the highlight of the show( the only one, im sure.) heard that they have to find karaoke versions of the songs their gonna perform. i was like...huh? when i heard it. i mean, my motto in life (at least school anyway) is : use it if you can. so why is finding an acoustic guitar so difficult? i know they probably wont be able to get it till after the show...heck after christmas maybe, but no harm asking eh? unless of course one would prefer the sucky karaoke versions. but i doubt it. as for "owing the school" anything...i hardly think so cause they're gonna be doing the school a service...right?
oh well. that's just my laments for something im not even actively taking part in. dont mind me, i just like butting my nose into anything and everything.
just came back from another "meeting" with the guys. celebrated my birthday(in advance) for me. how nicceee. haha *touched* hehe. bought a chocolate cake that we bought sometime ago for rachel (but smaller). anyways, you know the deal with birthday cakes and never having enough to eat? this time's on the contrary. have a huge slab of choc cake waiting for me in the fridge right now. imagine all the pounds i'm gonna intake. whoa. the house's like a cake shop now - every corner of the kitchen, there's a cake. anyways am in high spirits right now... possibly cause of the pleasant surprise. well that's for a change.
anyways the girls are gonna come my place for dinner tomorrow night. hopefully things wont bungle up. hope there's enough space at home too.
be back soon.
xxx
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been kinda feeling sad since sometime this afternoon. being sad naturally makes one cranky dap.
oh well. been working on my site the whole day. now it seems i havent done anything at all...
am watching super mission, where this singer is looking for a bunch of friends she used spend so much time with.
its making me sad, cause somehow someday these people i see everyday will part with me....and will i have the chance to be with them like i am now ever again? =(
oops i forgot to thank huimin's computer hehe. =x *sheepish grin*
ndp sucks. literally. gonna get stuck in school almost everyday because of that.
fri was jo's bday. and yep you've guessed it - more ndp rehearsals. got irritated by the bb boys, who were making bad jokes out of every little thing. laughed at xiaoying's commands too, which got them in trouble. oh well.. i guess a public apology and one hundred lines of i'm sorry is easy on them. there're uniformed group cadets for god's sake. anyways the training was adjourned cause of the heavy rain.
went to pizza hut's for dinner after that. celebrated jo's bday - well sorta - and took more photos. i've been using piles of batteries recently; damn the camera. anyways one thing i found ridiculous was that siyun and gang went to seoul garden's (ie away from us). so much for celebrating jo's bday for jo. so we bitched much, and had stupid games together. it's been a while since we've done that; sitting around just being plain silly. couldn't decide on whether to go to school the next day or not.
saturday was ncc land and air's rod. as i said earlier, we couldnt decide on whether to go or not. went anyway...with fatz and xy. wenlin and co were already in school for remedials and stuff, so we just met up. was kind of a shocking event cause we saw many of the guys cry - some of which for the first time. didn't really expect them to..they are after all guys. well i suppose they couldnt be that much different from us, passing out - a symbolism of going one's separate ways) - after so many years of suffering together.. *sniff* oh well.
heard from qing that the ncc air's rod (which took place after all of us left) was very much different. no crying, no sadness...just everybody fighting for the buffet food. erm..shall not comment too much on that.
so i guess that doesnt leave much time left for studying eh?
oh well. quarreling with my mom is becoming a routine. not that i want to...
anyway, went out shopping for jo's and my present just now. just about think the peeps have had enough of my indecisiveness - couldnt seem to have my eye on anything. cant really be helped i guess... i wasnt in a very walk-about mood and besides, never liked having so much of a choice in such a short time..to buy a present? haha sounds wierd. i dunno, it just feels...pressurizing. anyway they bought me a wallet - rather classy if i should say. wondering now if it suits me.
talking on the bus with ps and group on the way home. it seems so long ago the last time we did that. was actually glad i tagged along. *note to self: try to spend more time with them.* anyway, so we were talking about siyun backing out of this whole ndp thing. seriously i dont care what she feels about this whole thing - she's got a responsibility and she jolly well should do what she's supposed to. i mean, its like we have to change all our arrangements because she's backing out. besides why is it that she has a choice on entering the parade or not...and we dont? its like we never ever had a choice. i know she's vexed bout jianhui and all that shit but...you know.
maybe i'm biased. or even bitter. i dont know...i just feel that she has this priviledge or something. just put yourself in our shoes - it seems like whenever we wanna back out of some red cross event, be it major or minor, we'll in the end go or something like that; we'll think of how not going will affect her some way or another and we'll go. now she's... it's almost like she's letting us down or something. and she can and we cant? maybe this stems from house meetings a long time ago...
omg i can't believe how much my mom and i clash. she's back for not even 2 days, and i've had more than 2 heated arguments with her already - and its all usually about nothing important. everytime we meet she finds something to say about me and if she doesn't, she'll dig something that probably happened gazellion light years ago to talk about. i dont underestand - why can't she just leave me alone?!
have to get back to prose decoding before i lose the will to do so...argh i suddenly hate lit so much. ohnevermind.
yesterday's racial harmony day was horrendous. half the day was spent sweatin' it out in the toilet and the other half, trying hard not to trip over our saris and fall flat on our faces. but as ning says, it will be, or was the most memorable racial harmony day ever. i mean, this is the first time we're dressing up for racial harmony... and to such disastrous results...i guess you won't forget that in a hurry. besides, falling over and tripping on the looooong piece of cloth nobody knew where to stuff into is hardly stuff people forget easily. i guess i looked kinda horried that day, with extremely huge bulges the sari cloths made and our maniacal rush in the toilets, trying frantically to stuff them in without any avail..
took a whole lot of pictures, though i still can't believe i took 64mb worth of 'em. took pictures with anybody i saw - even those i remotely knew (heh). kinda hillarious actually.
the whole experience of being an indian for a day is painful and horrifying (haha)... im sure marie if not the others can relate *giggles* to this. i mean, we had to take such small steps that we all had muscle aches by the end of the day. all in all it was a good day - great day in fact, just cause we got the chance to get together - not just people from 4/3 but with people from other classes as well. and it was kinda fun having so much difficulty doing anything. in a perverse way that is. haha.
which kinda makes me glad we didnt do this every year. the whole...not knowing what to do and all kinda adds to the fun of it all - we wouldnt feel like we did if we had done this every year....
there is a sense of satisfaction in the air...
Your Brain Usage Profile
Auditory : 56%
Visual : 43%
Left : 50%
Right : 50%
daphne, your hemispheric dominance is equally divided between left and right brain, while you show a moderate preference for auditory versus visual learning, signs of a balanced and flexible person.
Your balance gives you the enviable capacity to be verbal and literate while retaining a certain "flair" and individuality. You are logical and compliant but only to a degree. You are organized without being compulsive, goal-directed without being driven, and a "thinking" individual without being excessively so.
The one problem you might have is that your learning might not be as efficient as you would like. At times you will work from the specific to the general, while at other times you'll work from the general to the specific. Sometimes you will be logical in your approach while at other times random. Since you cannot always control the choice, you may experience frustrations not normally felt by persons with a more defined and directed learning style.
You may also minimally experience conflicts associated with auditory processing. You will be systematic and sequential in your processing of information, you will most often focus on a single dimension of the problem or material, and you will be more reflective, i.e., "taking the data in" as opposed to "devouring" it.
Overall, you should feel content with your life and yourself. You are, perhaps, a little too critical of yourself - and of others - while maintaining an "openness" which is redeeming. Indecisiveness is a problem and your creativity is not in keeping with your potential. Being a pragmatist, you downplay this aspect of yourself and focus on the more immediate, the more obvious and the more functional.
i feel like im ready to write a long post.
what an eventful weekend. busy too, not to mention tiring. friday was shop-for-sari day. us gals (felicia, carin, marie, me, fatz, jy, jess, n erin) went to little india. already had one, though i just couldn't resist going out with the gals. besides, it would be an eye-opener to see a part of singapore we wouldn't otherwise see. had a chance to ride on the NE line while we were at that. comparisons were naturally made. the new trains seem cleaner. and most definitely faster. and bigger. also its purple! heh. the stations had this futeristic design that i so dig. what am i saying right? of course it was gonna be better than the old one.
all the girls who didnt have a sari yet at time of trip (fel, jy, carin, marie) bought em. felicia has this reddish looking one that is oh so bee-u-ti-ful. anyways marie and jy too bought saris, and i cant wait to see em (heheh=x). erin was kinda reluctant, no adamant, bout not buying a sari, though we kinda offered to help her pay some...(it is after all, our last year) so jess decided she was gonna buy a sari of her own. which kinda helped things a lot, cause she gave hers to erin. so we went tramping around the streets looking for the best prices (shopping!!), which resulted in us buying the different parts of the sari at different shops. whole set adds up to about $18++. oh well. bought bangles and earrings to go with my costume.
super tired out after that, but i had to rush home to get the red x souveneirs ready( god i hate stitching).
sat was red cross passing out day. was a tiring and long day for all red cross(and np) cadets. in a way, it was also inferior dap day. oh well. so many things, so hard to start..
the cadets' performance was terrible right from the start, though i guess we couldnt care any less cause we're gonna pass out. but still.....
den they say we're gonna have a farewell bbq that night. but guess what? no pit. no pit. how nice eh? then we got lost at east coast park, and had to walk like the entire circumference of that place before getting to the designated spot. waited aons for the fire to start (thank god for np's bee hoon). all of us were kinda separated that night - we didnt get to interact with each other(together) much. so i guess the bbq was a let down. went home early too - earliest i have in like such a long time. didnt even get to eat much of the food - half a chicken wing, 3 crab sticks, half a hot dog...rice. guess they missed me out when they distributed the food. which just shows how unimportant i am. argh. suddenly lost the mood to write....
i cant believe i just finished watching the ch 8 show - singapore's own days of our lives...
anyways tomorrow's the poc. *excited* hope i dont forget anything. heh
OMG i cant believe my half page commentary just went BOOM! gone. just. like. that.
damn i hate blogger.
guess my bdae's comin up real soon huh? hehe always not too early to make a birthday wishlist..... give the site a closer look sometime reaaaal soon
Take the Spirit Quiz and visit Castle Diqueria.
I'm getting there. I don't suck, but I've got a ways to go.
i just feel so...stretched out. argh, dunno why. it's not like i dun have time, i have all the time in the world these couple of days, considering my absence in school. i guess it's just... something that creeped up to me unawares to remove the veil behind my eyes so i see all the tiniest details...all of which i so want to ignore. nevermind that now. am not in the mood to explain.
wanted to cut my hair as i passed the salon downstairs but decided against it - guess im not up for shocks anytime soon. so maybe i'll postpone it till sunday...who knows?
saturday's our pop. which stands for passing out parade. which means no more red cross after that. which means photo taking day. hope i'll remember the cam( thanks ed! hee *grin*)
went to raffles hotel( the one with the 70 stories) for high tea with my aunt today. had to take the mrt, since my uncle was not generous enough to send us all the way there. got highly irritated by my aunt cause she had to comment on anything and everything that i do. saw this pair of lesbians who boarded the mrt the same time i did. which was good, considering that there weren't any other people on the train worth looking(observing) at. so anyways they were cuddling, completely oblivious to other criticising stares and comments. thing was, there wasn't much stares and comments in the first place.
in the not so long ago past, such actions would have undoubtedly garnered lotsa disapproving frowns, or worse, smart aleck snickers. so this lace of a reaction to this 2 girls make me wonder if these people are slowly being accepted by the society. are they no longer considered to be freaks or wierdos, but as a part of everyday life now?
crossed paths with an extremely good looking guy - dont know if i should thank my aunt for that or not - but it was kinda embarrassing considering that i knocked into him. almost anyway. he had the 'thank-god-i-managed-to-stop-in-time' look on his face. which makes this look officially my favourite look from now on. anyways i stopped dead in my tracks and poor ole ogling me kinda embarrassed meself even more.
the scene from the top of the world - or so it seems - is wonderful. the sky looks so much closer to me up there, which was a good thing. the only regrets i had was forgetting to bring the camera along with me. the tiny roads down below was lacking in human activity, probably cause its a sunday. anyways that was better - cant imagine enjoying someplace congested with sweating bodies. ed and the guys happened to be in the same place as i was (well not the same but close), and they suggested coming by to visit me. this of course was welcomed by me. unfortunately the place was somewhere where u had to book to get in... and im sorry to say that they embarrassed themselves pretty much. that was kinda disappointing, cause i was looking forward to seeing qing(haha). anyways the trip started out well, but it pretty much sucked by the end of it.
went home cause i didnt want to be stuck with my aunt any bit longer after that only to remember my keys were with her. sat outside the door listening to the neighbours blasting "yellow submarine" for a good half n hour before i left to meet up with huimin. that period of isolation was pretty good for a lousy-feeling ole me - i got to think and sort out my thoughts a lil. one thing i regretted was not being able to get home to get the camera to take some pictures of the setting sun - today's was big and clearly defined and the most beautiful.
watched t3: rise of the machines with the guys just now. was an ok show, though i think the guys didn't think much of it.
signs you're watching an action flick:
1. characters usually wear only one set of clothing throughout the movie.
2. the movie usually leaves your ear with a ringing sensation at the end of it.
3. characters utter monosyllabic words that you hear from your kid brother 2 weeks later.
4. bad guys NEVER die.
5. a wide variety of guy stuff(e.g cars, guns) can be found.
6. the hero would usually be seen with a companion, preferably a female.
7. the female usually ends up with hero, regardless of ending.
8. the hero, more often than not, has to fight to try and "save the world"
applicable? heh
new poll! haha
it's always interesting to know what people think of you...
or realising what you really think of them
it's a difficult period for some people now, but in the face of all that their strengths just really shines through.
i guess the sudden increase in the amount of prose work we do is casting a sort of an effect on me. i mean, there's hardly anytime now that i see a string of words beginning with the same letter(aliteration!) and not try to give reasons for it. oh boy.
my lack of regular sleeping hours is bugging me right now. i guess im just a irregular imsomniac, if there's such a term for it. what's amazing to say is...the lesser i sleep, the better i can work. it's like im high on some kind of drug. not to say it's not wearing me down in the least... the constant headaches, short tempers..funny noises in my head...argh.
I WANNA SLEEP!
could not help crying for the twins who died this afternoon due to excessive loss of blood. so much optimism, so much disappointment. One's to become a lawyer. Who knows how their lives would have changed if they managed to separate successfully? i guess we can only wonder now. their parents, their lives, their friends...all gone. just like that. to think they were chatting and laughing less than 24 hours ago.
dont know why i feel so much for the ladies. may God bless them, wherever they are.
Which [5 Elements] are you?
Which [Smallville] Characters are you?
haha
im so sick of this deceit. the strain of putting on a brave face is getting to me. is it so difficult to delude myself into believing what isn't there? or am i forever trapped in the neverending struggle to free myself from the deathgrip of the ghosts of truth...?
my name:
daphne:
Your world, good or bad, revolves around your family. You are determined and loyal, and your word is your bond. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You have a talent for working with people on a one to one basis. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You can be quite inventive and quite curious.
boey:
You have a tendency to resist change. Don't miss opportunities for growth. You have a love of creature comforts, but must learn to handle money. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. Your independence and freedom are important to you.
zhen ling :
You have much compassion and psychic ability. You may have extremes of luck. Bad luck can be the result of laziness or lack of faith. You need to learn the true value of material possessions. You have a natural protection in life. You are always saved - especially from yourself. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You are a hard worker when you make up your mind to do a job.
You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.
What feeling do you represent?
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huh?
haha
You are Lust.
Every part of you screams "Do me now!"
You exude sexuality and while others sometimes
view you as a slut, you see yourself as only
giving into your base desires.
What Emotion Are You?
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feeling of the day: hungry (even after eating and eating and eatin...)
thought of the day: of when i will finish my literature
craving for the day: coffee bean's vanilla coffee ice blend
song of the day: faith hill's one
site of the day: a complete(?) list of phobias
sneaked in here for a quick session of blog here after getting covered in dog saliva from head to toe. am here at ming tiong's place(which is huge) and playing with his dog. sooooooooooo super cute!! haha will try to get pic of it(him) soon.
meanwhile....
anxiously waiting the arrival of the food. tired out after this morning's listening compre and red cross tea party. had food to eat there though, so it wasn't that bad..
haha
argHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........!!!
it seems like every version of pink's feel good time out on kazaa has that irritating "radio deejay" voice. damn damn damn damn damn!
somebody send me a better versh? or does the voice come with the song?
in the meantime fatz com is now back online(yay!). finally huh?
guess the time machine worked after all.
One
Faith Hill
I've tried with all my mind
But still don't understand why we ever let it get so out of hand
My arms are reaching out and holding on tight
To what it always felt so right
It's hard to figure out the answers to the questions
Wind blow the light as you go on a separate direction
One is breaking into two
And my heart is turning blue
And you still don't get it, do you, do you
I thought we had all the love to go with for the long run
So before the damage is done
Let's start back over as one
Lights out when every evening used to get so hot
Now we got so damn distracted that we forgot
How to lock the world away and just get lost in where you're in where I begin
Love is strong but it's so easy to divide
Support I think about
How much is all the life
phew! so the task's done. i'll probably want to edit a lil sometime soon, but for now that's it. have enough of html swimming round my head now.
the new blogger look is catching on me. the look's classier and itz blue! haha.
by the way fatz com failed her again(i knew the 'time machine' couldn't be trusted..so there). anybody using a dial-up connection who has any idea what's going on, drop me a comment.
man, i've been talking about changing my blogskin for like...forever, but just can't seem to get down to it. and believe me, i've been looking. weishan's skin caught my eye on blogskins.com but apparently i was a tad too slow ;) haha. sooo...now it's a tossup between this greyish blue skin and this black-red kinda skin. guess im gonna go with the black one cause i could use a skin thats a lil less blue. suppose its good, with tons of space for content and a built in flooble box! hahaa. i could use the space though.
nobody talks back to me anymore. so im gonna maybe add a flooble box, like my skin suggests. hopefully i'll get more noise around.
ohmygodicantbelieveislipped. damndamndamndamn. argh
was trying to feed dog medcine when i stuck my tongue out and licked my lips. grandma saw stud and asked wadz that. naturally i tried to lie. i only hope she believes it and all will be well....argh
the alarm clock like, totally bailed on my today. so imagine my shock when i sat bolt upright in bed this morning at 7.25 wondering why it's so bright outside and how on earth did i manage to sleep through the noise my alarm clock usually makes, then realising my alarm clock totally did not ring.(thats a long sentence for mr nara to cut up) so what was i supposed to do huh? went back to sleep and dreamt of a long word snake that said "someone came and switched off your alarm then turned it on again"(hey i said it was long...and those were the exact words) winding round and round incessantly around the black space that was supposed to be my resting brain(again..another one, mr nara).
oh well
ps: hope fatz com goes back on soon. note: the whole time machine thing she was saying was totally screaming "doubt me! doubt me" but i'll give it the benefit of the doubt...so good luck.
