how did it come to this?
oh well. quarreling with my mom is becoming a routine. not that i want to...
anyway, went out shopping for jo's and my present just now. just about think the peeps have had enough of my indecisiveness - couldnt seem to have my eye on anything. cant really be helped i guess... i wasnt in a very walk-about mood and besides, never liked having so much of a choice in such a short time..to buy a present? haha sounds wierd. i dunno, it just feels...pressurizing. anyway they bought me a wallet - rather classy if i should say. wondering now if it suits me.
talking on the bus with ps and group on the way home. it seems so long ago the last time we did that. was actually glad i tagged along. *note to self: try to spend more time with them.* anyway, so we were talking about siyun backing out of this whole ndp thing. seriously i dont care what she feels about this whole thing - she's got a responsibility and she jolly well should do what she's supposed to. i mean, its like we have to change all our arrangements because she's backing out. besides why is it that she has a choice on entering the parade or not...and we dont? its like we never ever had a choice. i know she's vexed bout jianhui and all that shit but...you know.
maybe i'm biased. or even bitter. i dont know...i just feel that she has this priviledge or something. just put yourself in our shoes - it seems like whenever we wanna back out of some red cross event, be it major or minor, we'll in the end go or something like that; we'll think of how not going will affect her some way or another and we'll go. now she's... it's almost like she's letting us down or something. and she can and we cant? maybe this stems from house meetings a long time ago...
