how did it come to this?
how much can one hope for when one is 16 and stuck in a place she doesnt even know how to describe? let's be realistic people, there isnt much. not even if you have the best family in the world there isnt. and this doesnt even stem from my brimming disbelief at the thought that families can work. go on, check the dictionary for the definition of "family" - A fundamental social group in society typically consisting of one or two parents and their children. OR
Two or more people who share goals and values, have long-term commitments to one another, and reside usually in the same dwelling place. what nonsense.
but lets face it. there are happy families all around. so this myth is not so much a myth after all. i just dont - cant - understand how it works. why can people acheive it that i cant? is it so difficult? thoughts bubbling through one's head at such a time, one naturally seeks the easiest answer to which something must be wrong with one of us in the family in this case. but who likes to admit one's mistakes, no matter how grave?
coming back to my point, there is nothing much one can hope. after so many years of hopes and dreams you realise all comes to naught. perhaps all one can do is to ride with the wave, and arrange it that it doesnt strike you too hard. we dream too much, and this may very well be the downfall of humanity.
