how did it come to this?
i am NOT going to say anything about the irritating girl sitting next to me now. =x
exams are over. hooray! haha. nothing much to cheer about really. got back my prelim slip the day before. what can i say. knowing you are not gonna go nowhere these few months is different, and i mean different from seeing the words "you are not eligible for the pre-u course". just hope it wont happen EVER again.
one thing though, it gave us (=x) something to talk about. come to think about it, it's the longest conversation we had face to face ever since then(you know what i mean). it's funny how whenever i decide to totally give up on something something will happen to make me start to waver in my decision.
got a dress(at last!). am apprehensive bout wearing though, its black, its sleek, its so not me. wonder what others will say that day. ok maybe it might BE me, i just never had the chance to see myself like that.
i've decided: i really DO love myself. i like looking at myself so much i cant describe. i know people are gonna start hating me. i cant really say i care right now. it sounds so bimboic (to say i really really love myself), but......still i do. maybe thats why i dont like to really show or admit it in front of other people..but that doesnt mean i dont. min told me everybody loves themselves, but im wondering if they love themself the way i do me. ok im starting to lose sense.
i think its okay for people to love themselves - as long as they dont do it so much that other people are dirt to their eyes. that is just...wrong. maybe if they are impossibly gorgeous they can and still get away with it, but for the rest of the people in the entire solar system you're just booking a ticket to be hated.
oh the world is unfair.
