how did it come to this?
how did it come to this?
how did it come to this?
how did it come to this?
how did it come to this?
how did it come to this?
how did it come to this?
Take Eysenck's EPQ-R based Personality Test Extraversion (75%) high which suggests you are very talkative, optimistic, and sociable but possibly not very reflective.
Neuroticism (56%) moderately high which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and nervous.
Psychoticism (58%) moderately high which suggests you tend to be offensive, uncooperative, and rebellious.
what a mess.
today has been this hectic whirl of events. everythings speeding by i dont even know which is which anymore.
sooo..results came out today. i think everyone pretty much did pretty well. maybe everybody else did well. which is like..so not good. anyway my r5's 14..so im contented. was actually contemplating jc life for a moment cause..lit sounded really fun and i kinda miss days wearing a uniform. but as many people have been saying, you go to a jc..you betta be damn sure you're gonna do real well cause that's the only way to go. the other way is to go die so...
ahh well i've decided - i wanna go to a poly. having a 14 just shows people that i chose to go to one..not that i'm forced to. besides..mass comm's a pretty nice looking course...i really really hope i get in. dont know what i'll do if i dont.
on a lighter note..ive gotten my pay! so it means the next few days will be spent in a feverish buying frenzy. haha. its not that i dont wanna save up...i cant help myself!
wish me luck.
till then,
xxx
my grandma tells me i look horrible. ok that's like..so bad but i guess she doesnt lie. i know im born naturally yellow and all, but my grandma insists its from my lack of sleep. i mean what can i do about that? its not like i dont wanna sleep nicely and all....i CANT! come to think of it, maybe my voice's not coming back cause i havent been sleeping enough.
ive come to realise most my money's being spent on food. and cds. and i haven been having much of a life. i also haven been reading much.
so as of now i will:
1.sleep by 2am each night
2.try to get sun at least once a week
3.try to get people to accompany me out
4.try to spend lesser
5.try to read more
so far away
staind
this is my life
its not what it was before
all these feelings i've shared
and these are my dreams
that i'd never lived before
somebody shake me
cuz i
i must be sleeping
now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
all in the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and i'm not ashambed to be the person that i am today
these are my words
that i've never said before
i think i'm doing okay
and this is the smile
that i've never shown before
somebody shake me cuz i
i must be sleeping
i'm so afraid of waking
please don't shake me
afraid of waking
please don't shake me
went jess' place yesterday. she was celebrating her 17th bday in advance. pretty low keyed event, considering jessica's reputation for throwing big and noisy parties. pretty surprised that many people weren't there(but then again it was a "low keyed event"). my voice's still not back yet, so yesterday was pretty tough for me. couldnt really carry conversations, though i really really want to, cause 1) there are some people i havent seen in a while, 2)there is juicy gossip to be shared and 3)talking is really the only entertainment all of us can be a part of. this whole voice losing thing is really bugging me...im really desperate to get it back. so please please return it back to me.
another thing - its not like im sick or anything...i just cant talk. it was a little irritating having people treating me like im an invalid. or that i couldnt think for myself or something. anyway but i know they mean well.
so there were a lot of fried food last night which i ate. frankly i've had about enough of watching what i eat hopiing my voice will come back cause it wont. no matter what i eat. or not.
had fun playing with each others' hair. thinking back, it was kinda retarded but we had fun...and that's most important i guess.
went home slightly after ten. earliest ever in the history of jessica's parties, and im left wondering what's wrong. it's not even like everybody left at 10...that would have been better. people started leaving at around eightish. that is waaaaay early man. i suppose now that people have moved on and gotten new lives(unlike me who seems to be stuck in some kinda time warp) they've grown out of the whole old life old routine kinda thing.
but that's just me.
results are coming out reaal soon i imagine people are starting to sweat. im keeping my fingers crossed.
Love.
Without shape or form,it that flutters
To and fro the hearts of friends and lovers alike. It that gently
Stirs the awakening of delights,
It that gives the world, its joys, to one.
Love.
It breaks us apart.
It tears our hearts.
It brings us pain,
And all things profane.
Pouncing on poor souls,
It rips out our guts,
And leaves us helpless
And confused.
And all in vain.
argh i hate lousy computers. oh no, i just hate mine. i think it's decided to be permanently spoilt. just to spite me. STUPID STUPID COM. quite a lot has happened this couple of days...
okay what can be the worst thing to happen than being seen by someone's girlfriend to be out with another girl? being seen by someone's girlfriend to be out with another girl..who is totally platonic but dont seem to be. so..it's even worse if the girlfriend is the girls goood goood friend. totally innocent though, but now thinking back on it can that confrontation be helped? i mean there could be a way to get more people to come along for the innocent job interviews rite? then there's the whole just going separately thing. it doesnt feel good to be the cause of a misunderstanding, however innocent. it's even worse to be causing a greater rift between them(when u thought it couldnt get any bigger a rift than that).
so what else is new? during these couple of days i:
-went to np's open house
-got bowled over by the media equipment there(though the buildings were really really old
-got bowled over by the people from business
-went for a movie
-went for several interviews
-went shopping
-went shopping while shops closed around us
-went for a manicure(actually it was waited for a manicure to finish but..)
-became a maid for a day(ahem)
-bought nail polish which i absolutely regretted after 5 mins of buying it(too "dumb-blonde" a color!)
-spent money on food like i had an endless supply
-tried raw egg
-tried shaved milk ice
-went looking for a job during haji(how stupid can i get? ha. ha.)
-blah blah blah blah blah
dont think i'll bore anybody anymore with a detailed account of my life soo...
ciao,
xxx
