20050228,
14:48
you know, i really shouldnt be saying this considering im an arts student takin lit, and arts students taking lit are known to have nothing to do but i DONT HAVE TIME! i barely even have time to sleep man. not that i need that much sleep but still.. and my homework's piling sky high. it kinda looks like the beginnings of a mountain already. soon you'll see that im buried under it. worse thing is, its mostly only math. ugh. the one subject i wish i was never associated with. ive barely touched those yoke har has already gone through and 4 more tutorials are waving their hands at me. not 1 or 2 but FOUR tutorials. i dont see how im ever gonna catch up. its kinda traumatising really. im beginning to believe im even dreaming of them. horrifying thought. and then there's training. training's startin earlier and earlier and worse thing is, its ending later and later! how ridiculous can that be?! add that to the various activities a normal student with a decent social life(no, that doesnt include you, you bloody muggers) and you get a helluva complicated equation with no extra time as ANY part of it at all. see i dont even have time to get my hair cut. so people, next time you wanna say something about my unruly hair, dont. i KNOW about it. i CANT do anything about it cos i have NO TIME! seriously man, if this goes on pretty soon you'll see me walking around with mismatched socks and crumpled shirts. i might even start to smell too cause i wont have time to bathe. heh. so somebody save me eh?
how did it come to this?
20050220,
20:40
Only You
Ashanti
i can't wait to get next to you
i just can't leave you alone
boy you got me doing things that i would never do
i can't stop the way i'm feeling if i wanted to
i'm crazy 'bout the way that you could make me say your name
and if i couldn't have you i would probably go insane
And only you can make me feel
And only you can take me there
And only you can make me feel
And only you can take me there
i can't wait to get next to you
i just can't leave you alone
boy you stay inside my mind ain't no denying that
only you can do the things that got me coming back
it's gotta be the realiest thing that i have ever felt
and i'll do what i gotta do to keep you to my self
crazy bout the way you feel
i just gotta have you here
and i'll never let you go
no i just won't let u go
how did it come to this?
18:32
| Freudian Inventory Results |
Oral (46%) you appear to have a good balance of independence and interdependence knowing when to accept help and when to do things on your own.
Anal (10%) you appear to be overly lacking in self control and organization, and possibly have a compulsive need to defy authority. If you are too scatterbrained, you will not develop much as a person as you will habitually switch paths before you ever learn anything.
Phallic (83%) you appear to have issues with controlling your sexual desires and possibly fidelity.
Latency (80%) you appear to be afraid or averse to present or future real world responsibilities, this will only make your inevitable transition more difficult, so learn to deal with the real world.
Genital (66%) you appear to have a progressive and openminded outlook on life unbeholden to regressive forces like traditional authority and convention.
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how did it come to this?
20050219,
17:51
yes 19th febuary 2005 is officially the best day of my life. :)
2 simple words.
how did it come to this?
20050215,
14:26
| Global Personality Test Results |
Stability (31%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness (13%) very low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion (84%) very high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
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Enneagram Test Results | Type 1 | Perfectionism | |||| | 14% | | Type 2 | Helpfulness | |||||||||||||||| | 66% | | Type 3 | Image Focus | |||||||||||||||||| | 74% | | Type 4 | Hypersensitivity | |||||||||||||||| | 66% | | Type 5 | Detachment | |||||||||| | 34% | | Type 6 | Anxiety | |||||||||| | 38% | | Type 7 | Adventurousness | |||||||||||||||||||| | 90% | | Type 8 | Aggressiveness | |||||||||||||||||||| | 82% | | Type 9 | Calmness | |||||||||||||| | 54% | Your main type is 7 Your variant is sexual |
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how did it come to this?
13:17
words are amazing.
i cannot say i am in control of my words, but words control me. they can bring me up, they can take me down.
to use words like the way you do u have me in your grips. i get lost, i feel faint, i am estatic.
i cant promise you the world. all i can do is to narrate to you my world in all its glory. then i can make the trees come alive. then i can make the faries fly. i can give you my words. my words are not shallow. my words are what i hold most dear. my words are all i have.
i would like to give my words to you.
how did it come to this?
20050209,
18:06
the swaying waters, the hum of the music in
our ears, the sound of your heart beating next to mine -
sweet melody. the cold cold bitter night brightens
and warms; it glows and shimmers like the setting sun.
i feel you, your touch, the warmth of you pressed against
me - we're intertwined - i soar beyond my wildest
imagination. your burning skin on mine, the
dead, cold flesh of mine, and for a moment, i live
again. you lock me in your embrace and i feel
safe, safe from the monsters - real or mine own. i fall
asleep, the thump of your heart like music to my ears.
how did it come to this?
15:23
Then must you speak
Of one that loved not wisely but too well,
Of one not easily jealous but, being wrought,
Perplexed in the extreme; of one whose hand,
Like the base Indian, threw a pearl away
Richer than all his tribe - othello.
how did it come to this?
20050208,
22:28
ok peeps sorry for the deeeeeeeeeeeeeeelaaaaaaaaaaaay but here are the pics from ning's bday
AND, have a look at my very satisfactory outram outing :). its a bit blurry..but oh well what can i do.
how did it come to this?
21:26
i hate it when my mom puts me down.
it seems like i can never be good enough. i'm never gonna marry, i'm gonna end up alone, i cant do housework for nuts, i'm not this, i cant be that, i too much like that, i cannot stop doing this blah blah blah.
well too bad she aint got no choice. i'm all she has.
how did it come to this?
20050206,
23:15
Baby Don't You Break My Heart Slow
Vonda Shepard
like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky
I was believing in you
Am I mistaken do you say,
Do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever
I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow
I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping
(Bridge)
You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home thinking that we're together
I wanted our love to last forever
how did it come to this?
22:18
just now, my aunt was warning me about dangers of of being an eighteen year old girl. i acted dumb - pretended to not know what she was talking about.
truth is, i knew exactly what she was trying to imply. i was just too offended that she will even think i'd do that.
so there.
how did it come to this?
19:42
sometimes, words not spoken are like daggers. they can leave scars in your heart.
at other times, to speak up, to clarify things shatter the pictures, lies, sense of illusion and delusion we build around ourselves.
i do wish things are as simple as they seem.
i certainly wish things will be as they seem.
one day, a few hours, some minutes even, i'll be content. it doesnt matter the amount of time the fog of confusion - that which eludes from us, clarity - clears, it's how you make full use of it, how you embrace it fully and hopefully, grow from the end of it.
the end of it all.
everything ends, one way or another. now, then, or in the future; nothing lasts forever. everything ends, stops, cease to mean a thing when we die.
the ultimate end.
who knows when it'll end?
how did it come to this?
20050202,
10:52
I cant get enough of you.
I burn up, you're all i seek.
I cant stop, i cannot sleep.
Its all i need. This slow burn,
Igniting all that i keep.
I cant breathe enough of you.
I fall down flat, in a heap.
Gasping for air and gurgling
For speech, i fumble, drown, and
Asphyxiate. I'm in too deep.
I cant see enough of you.
I'm lost in a sea of you.
Everywhere i go, every
Thing that i see, all else fades -
I wait, until our eyes meet.
I cant hear enough of you.
All dins dim; i hear all you
Speak, Each word, sound, the careless
Whisper to your love - every
Syllable, in my heart, i grip.
I cant get enough of you.
You're like a drug, a spell, a sweet
For small kids. You're health food for
My soul, harmful to my heart,
I cant break free, you're all i seek.
how did it come to this?
