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well i dont know if its true or not but in any case, here's a little halloween special brought to you by ANGBIZHU. argh.
see it here
quiz galoreYour Seduction Style: Sex Pot 
Tradionally known as a "siren", "rake", or "femme fatale." You exude sensuality.
And while your sexiness is part of what makes you an incredible seducer...
Your ability to make others feel sexy is what really makes your seduction skills shine.
Most people don't feel attractive or desired enough - a need which you tap into.
You have the ultimate sex appeal, and getting attention from you is a total self esteem boost.
Your confidence is contagious, and you help others unleash their own sexuality.
Your sex pot seduction skills are so intoxicating that you can get away with... well, almost murder.
Lovers feel like your sensuality is in your blood, so it's only natural if you flirt a little.
And if you stray, that might be okay as well - as long as you make your lover still feel hot.You're an Expert Kisser 
You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettableYour Ideal Relationship is Friends with Benefits 
You're not looking for anything serious... just something hot!
And you're little black book (or cell phone) always hooks you up.
You want nothing more than friends with benefits. No strings.
You also don't mind benefits without the friendship!
What's Your Ideal Relationship?
HA.You Passed 8th Grade Math 
How You Are In Love 
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.You Are 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.Your Birthdate: July 30 
Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness.
You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable.
You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words.
You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic.
You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller.
Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue.
There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work.
You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative.You're a Wild Drunk 
You can get enough drink. Seriously, you'll just go puke and start pounding them back again!
Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve
well that would explain for my *ahem* not so girly voice.
for all the tons of self-help books out there which assure you that hurt of losing a loved one will go away, it doesnt. the acute pangs of loneliness that is felt can never be erased. for sure, when time sets in we feel less strongly than we did at that present moment, but loneliness is never erased. we come to get used to the gnawing feeling that is loneliness, which settles in our guts like an eternal hunger, but it is never erased. we learn to ignore that ever present sensation, but it is never erased. we lead our lives like the way it is supposed to be, go back to our original routines - even manage to love again - but every once in awhile, when the night is cold and silent, loneliness rises up with full force - like a sudden gust of hot, damp air rising from the gutters. we are enveloped by our loneliness and for that moment, are struck dumb by the force of it. for that moment, the loneliness and ourselves are one. for that moment, we are enrapt in our pain and for that one moment, nothing else matters.
for that one moment, the world caves in and our vision blurries; we see nothing and hear nothing, feel nothing but that one precise emotion.
for that one moment, we cease to exist.
this is fuckin hilarious guys.
remember to check out his fashion pages and show him some love will ya?
well today, being a very bored person, i talked to wenlin online.
she wasnt studying so i was trying to be a nice person and shoo her back to it.
so our convo went like this:
give me a reason to believe. says:
GO STUDY!
give me a reason to believe. says:
WHY U NOT STUDYIN HUH
give me a reason to believe. says:
STUDY STUDY STUDY!
<°º::-^Crazedæ»°°°º¤ Like the blade you stain and the wounds that are ever gonna scar me. ¤º°°°æ--»::º°> says:
?!?!?!??!!!!
give me a reason to believe. says:
hit the books!
then, being very bored( and feeling rather artistic), i expressed my thoughts graphically.
(for people who dont know me and wenlin very well she's the apple. ok, 'nuff said.)
she wasnt feeling too nice so she replied with a
<°º::-^Crazedæ»°°°º¤ Like the blade you stain and the wounds that are ever gonna scar me. ¤º°°°æ--»::º°> says:
!~??!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<°º::-^Crazedæ»°°°º¤ Like the blade you stain and the wounds that are ever gonna scar me. ¤º°°°æ--»::º°> says:
*punch you
which i replied with a:
being the good friend, i tried to convince her to go back to studying once again:
the case of the missing blogs
HA. sometimes i think nothing can really escape me if i open my eyes a little wider( because i have teeny weeny eyes) and looked around a little bit. its strange really, the things i dont really care for just pop out and say hi ever so often, and the things that i really wish to know will forever elude me.
random post. bear with me. I KNOW.
im off now. gonna be a good little girl and take my pill and drift off to beautiful sleep and maybe when im there it wont hurt that much.
im bored. and tired. and sick of studying. another wasted day of photoshopping. HA.
and since yueli reads my blog( sometimes) then well lookit here you're on camera! HA.
in a million years from now, when our material bodies have long decomposed and our souls are but dust in the wind, it is our ideals that will still keep us alive. our voices that still ring in the ears of the others that will come after us, our thoughts that will echo through their heads.
sadly, they are being stifled by the very ones who thought they were helping.
the hand that brings the pillow down to our faces is that same hand that once fed and bathed us, that same hand that once guided us through our very first steps.
when we lose our voices, do we lose our souls?
in a million years from now, when our material bodies have long decomposed and our souls are but dust in the wind, we would become nothing.
Your Existing Situation
The existing situation contains critical or dangerous elements for which it is imperative that some solution be found. This may lead to sudden, even reckless, decisions. Self-willed and rejects any advice from others.
Your Stress Sources
Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates her and inhibits her readiness to give herself freely. While she wants to surrender and let herself go, she regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, she feels, will lift her above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.
Unhappy at the resistance she feels whenever she tries to assert herself. Indignant and resentful because of these setbacks, but gives way apathetically and makes whatever adjustments are necessary so that she can have peace and quiet.
Your Desired Objective
Longs for a tender and sympathetic bond and for a situation of idealized harmony. Has an imperative need for tenderness and affection. Susceptible to anything esthetic.
Your Actual Problem
Greatly impressed by the unique, by originality, and by individuals of outstanding characteristics. Tries to emulate the characteristics she admires and to display originality in her own personality.
take the quiz here
patience is an overated value that i have little of.
i was browsing through my photos and i really really have to show this.
i heart lucky 7 *smiles*
im rewinding the post time to 11.55pm so i can say...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIE!
lols.yepps, dinner at CA today was great. I heart my dearies. i heart dessert. i heart photo taking. i heart ice cream. i heart the birthday girl(even though she's ALWAYS hurtin my feelings HAHA
color mood test
You are so adamant at this time, you are not willing to concede to anything. You are dictatorial with your own ideas and the way you are feeling and there is little that anyone can do to make you change your mind, or to be able to persuade you to make concessions or to accept any compromise.
Being impulsive and irritable, your desires and needs are paramount. You do things with insufficient thought - with little regard to the consequences that may follow. As a consequence of this attitude, you may be experiencing stress and conflict.
It's the old old story - I am misunderstood - my partner (be it in your private life or in business) just doesn't understand me and YOU also believe at this time that you are being completely MISUNDERSTOOD by one and all. It then obviously follows that you naturally feel inhibited and not appreciated. It is perhaps because of this belief that you feel compelled to stand back and let the rest of the world go by. As for developing a firm relationship - inwardly deep down in your subconscious mind you are wary of even trying to get close to another person because you feel that if you open up your heart and feelings you are sure to get hurt. Since you are living in a society where close relationships are the norm, you feel that there is that need to conform, but any close relationships of any magnitude that you may have tried in the past have unfortunately left you without any sense of emotional involvement.
You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.
The need for admiration and to be regarded as 'someone special' is perhaps one of the foremost aims in your life at this time. You would like to perhaps do something outrageous or anything that will give you the chance to be recognized as someone special. This desire has now almost become an obsession and in your own way you are trying to fulfill this 'complex' by ensuring you are the center of attention, both at work or play, or in the home. Stop trying so hard and you will find that people will like you for who you are - not for who you are pretending to be.
1. Do you like talking on the phone? Why or why not?
no. i get bored talkin to a plastic thing - even if there's someone on the other line. cant touch cant see = BORING.
2. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
jieying and jessica
3. About how many telephones do you have at home?
2. one in the living room, another in mine.
4. Have you encountered anyone who has really bad phone manners? What happened?
i HATE ppl hanging up on me. i HATE it when they dont call back. oh and since we're on that, i HATE it when people dont reply my msges.
5. Would you rather pick up the phone and call someone or write them an e-mail or a letter? Why or why not?
depends.
1. Do you wear any jewelry? What kind?
yes. rings, ocassional necklace and bracelet.
2. How often do you wear it?
always wear rings.
3. Do you have any piercings? If so, where?
yeah. 5 on one ear, 1 on the other, navel, tongue :)
4. Do you have any tattoos? If so, where?
nope. but i wanna! haha soon.
5. What are your plans for the weekend?
eat like mad tmr with my dearies and mug like mad. HAHA. i lead a boring life. :(
we will not know who we are until we find out.
sad to say, few of us ever will.
im feelin sick. boohoo.
i wanna be tucked into bed.
give me a million kisses and sing to me sleep will you?
when im sick i just wanna be pampered.
shower me with love people.
graduation tomorrow. u know i cant talk now. so come up to me why dont you and TAKE A PICTURE WITH ME. haha.
blah blah blah i slept the whole day.
sick.
out.
The Leo type is the most dominant, spontaneously creative and extrovert of all the zodiacal characters. In grandeur of manner, splendor of bearing and magnanimity of personality, they are the monarch's among humans as the lion is king of beasts. They are ambitious, courageous, dominant, strong willed, positive, independent, self-confident there is no such a word as doubt in their vocabularies, and they are self-controlled. Born leaders, either in support of, or in revolt against, the status quo. They are at their most effective when in a position of command, their personal magnetism and innate courtesy of mind bringing out the best of loyalty from subordinates. They are uncomplicated, knowing exactly what they want and using all their energies, creativeness and resolution to get it, as well as being certain that they will get whatever they are after. Their followers know where they are with Leonians. Leonians think and act bigger than others would normally dare; the ambitiousness of their schemes and idealism sometimes daunt their followers, their practical hardheadedness and ability to go straight to the heart of any problem reassures those who depend on them. If Leonians meet with setbacks they thrive on the adversity.
On the whole they are powers for good, for they are strongly idealistic, humane, and beneficent. They have powerful intelligence and are of a broad philosophical, sometimes religious, turn of mind. Those who are devout may become very obstinate in upholding traditional beliefs and will cling tenaciously, but with complete sincerity, to practices and doctrines which liberal thinkers regard as absurdly out-of-date. These will be found as the 'lions' of industries, and in the forefront of the cutting edge of technologies.
Their faults can be as large in scale as their virtues, and an excessively negative Leonian can be one of the most unpleasant human beings imaginable, displaying extreme arrogance, autocratic pride, haughtiness, and excessive hastiness of temper. If jealously suspicious of rivals, they will not hesitate to use cunning, lies and trickery to discredit them. Self-centeredness, greed for flattery, boastfulness, and bombast, pomposity, snobbish superiority, and overbearing, and intolerant disdain of underlings; to whom they will nevertheless delegate the carrying out of minor details in their grandiose schemes, and from whom they are not above borrowing immoderately if an occasion necessitates it. Any of these can be characteristic of Leo. Add to them a passion for luxury, a lust for power, unlimited sexual lust, and emotional indulgence, and a character emerges that no one would want to know either in public life or private. But their pride may go before a fall, as uncontrolled impetuosity is likely to bring them low. Fortunately it is rare that a Leo is so undisciplined as to give way thoroughly to this list of vices, and their tendencies to them are usually balanced by an innate wisdom. Those who are afflicted with them also have the intelligence it takes to consciously and actively overcome them.
In professional life they do well at any vocation at which there is room at the top. As politicians they are content with nothing less than a powerful position in government. In business they may be the chairman of their company's board, or at least directors or managers. They are excellent organizers and overseers, often laying the groundwork for new projects. If from the artisan ranks of society they will aspire to become the boss, partly because they are ambitious by nature, partly because they dislike manual labor, preferring to take charge of others doing it. If artistic, Leos can become stars of stage or screen (their bent is serious rather than light drama), maestros as musicians where they will gravitate toward the grand instruments or activities, such as the organ or conducting of orchestras and as painters; anything grand in conception and scale appeals to them. Leo women make exceptionally good welfare workers.
In his or her relations with others the Leo type is open, sincere, genuine and trusting. Outgoing, spontaneously warm hearted and plain spoken, though never lacking in kindliness, Leos are more disillusioned than the average if let down by those they trust. They are not good judges of character and are inclined to favoritism and an exaggerated faith in their followers which too often ends in disappointment. They have a strong sex drive and are so attracted to the opposite sex that they find it hard to be constant; they can be so intensely sexual as to become dissolute. They may have numerous love affairs for their love of pleasure and beauty is liable to drive them from one attractive partner to another. They are very much inclined to deceive. Their marriages may fail for the same reason, yet they are sincere and generous to their lovers while love lasts, and will remain attached to their homes so long as it is run for their benefit. They demand service but are incapable of giving it.
LIKES
Speculative ventures
Lavish Living
Pageantry and Grandeur
Children
Drama
DISLIKES
Doing things safely
Ordinary,Day to day living
Small minded people
Penny pinching
Mean spiritedness
in each of our ways, we are all slowly dying.
we go along in our individual lives, enrapt in our meaningless daily routines, failing to see the glaze settling over our eyes, - like a dead fish - failing to smell the stench of rot we emanate.
in each of our little ways, we are slowly dying.
for even the most beautiful flower withers and rots.
De Profundis
Oh why is heaven built so far,
Oh why is earth set so remote?
I cannot reach the nearest star
That hangs afloat.
I would not care to reach the moon,
One round monotonous of change;
Yet even she repeats her tune
Beyond my range.
I never watch the scatter'd fire
Of stars, or sun's far-trailing train,
But all my heart is one desire,
And all in vain:
For I am bound with fleshly bands,
Joy, beauty, lie beyond my scope;
I strain my heart, I stretch my hands,
And catch at hope.
whoever looks for the truth deserves the punishment for finding it.
this taken from a book:
"loving or writing, nothing is more exciting or more beautiful than recognising the struggle between the power we exercise over another person and the power the other - man or woman - exercises over us. everything else vanishes in that ungraspable tempest of mutual attraction, of resistance that, out of lust for power or a mere instinct of survival or perhaps perversity, we put up to the attraction of another. the charm of such a struggle, obviously, is to yield to it. how? with whom? when? for how long? an ashen-winged angel flies over. that dark angel, that tarnished eros, is don juan, cupid in flames, his own androgynous self, who deposits on the eyelids, nostrils, ears, mouth of a loved one, on the back of the head, if necessary, the seeds of a smile, of a voice, of a glance. of a desire. beltenebros the melancholy whispers softly in my ear and tells me, 'there can be nothing sadder than the taste of the women you will never possess, the men you lost out of fear, out of conventionality, out of dread of taking the forbidden step, out of lack of imagination, out of inability to become, as don juan does, someone else.' "
intellectually sexy girls are really sexy indeed.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
mommy will never understand.
mommy will never get it.
mommy thinks fucking girls is bad. well yeah that's too bad.
mommy will never realise that it never was really about her, but me.
mommy will never see that this is my choice and not hers.
mommy cant comprehend that the world does not revolve always around herself.
Seven things you plan to do before you die
1.jump off a plane
2.jump off a building
3.have a threesome
4.write my will(no wait, leave vague instructions in my will so my heirs will tear each other's heads out tryin to get a piece of my assets :) hur. then mayb it'l be material enough for a reality show or sth.)
5.do it in the shower
6.speed(and not get caught)
7.be famous.
Seven things I could do
1.jump off a plane/building/anywhere jumpable.
2.have a threesome/orgy/any kinky stuff i wanna.
3.write a vague will and orchestrate my heirs' reality series :X
4.be famous/infamous/notorious.
5.be a better daughter
6.write
7.get my licence before i can speed. :/
Seven Celebrity Crushes
1.angie jolie
2.rebecca tan(without oli pom pi pi hovering ard :X)
3.xtina aguilera
4.BRAD PITT
5.alessandra ambrossio(UBER hot vic's secret model)
6.misha barton
7.jessica alba
(AYA WHY ONLY 7?! i could go on forever. eg livtylerethanhawkebrittanymurphyyadayadayada :( )
Seven often repeated words
1.fuck
2.gimme 5/10/15/20 mins more :X
3.DA BIAN
4.come on
5.shite
6.aya
7.plsplspls
Seven physical traits I look for
1.eyes
2.smile
3.neck
4.a taut belly (*drools*)
5.lips
6. aya i dunno! its all about general appeal man.
see all the things i plan to do are short term plans(well mayb not for number 4 but then my heirs can also be my cats and dogs and all the pesky cockroaches tt's forever lingering around). cause i never intended to live long.
they say we all lose 21 grams at the exact moment of our death.
everyone.
the weight of five nickels, of a hummingbird, of a chocolate bar - and perhaps also of a human soul.
OH! and i took photos w rebecca tan. OMFG i didnt even know who she was until val told me last night.
im a very very lucky girl :)
bad days and too much booze is VERY VERY BAD.
i made a fuckin fool of myself.
ARGH kill me.
clubbing 2 nights in a row is VERY VERY BAD.
remind me not to next time.
i think i have a problem with control. HA.
a heavy head and an even heavier heart.
im going off already.
so going to get drunk tonight.
and then its bye bye pain, bye bye cares.
1. what kind of first impression do you think you give people?
unfriendly bitch. attitude problem. no wait, i DO have attitude problems. ha.
2. what's one thing you like to do alone?
i hate doing things alone.
3. are you a giver or a taker?
i take more than i give :(
4. what have you stolen before?
stupid stuff when i was younger.
5. how many drinks before you're tipsy?
im a pretty gd drinker.
6. do you ever have to beg?
for what?
7. what kind of books do you like to read?
abstract stuff. everythin really.
8. do you think you're cute?
YES. HAHA :X
9. do you have a problem changing clothes infront of your friends?
no.
10. whats the most painful experience you've ever had?
love at its lowest
11. favorite communication method?
touch.
12. do u care for your admirers/suitors?
depends.
13. what is your most prized piece of your music collection?
all my christina stuff. I LOVE HER.
14. what is the geekiest part of your music collection?
does havin a brit brit spears album count as geeky? ok wait, that's not geeky, that's a LOSER. :S
15. what do you eat when you raid the fridge at night?
anythin i can find.
16. what is your favorite movie....
tons and tons and tons and tons.
17. if you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?
errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. nah dont think so. i love myself.
18. what is a physical habit that gives away your insecure moments?
i dunno..play w my stud? wait. i always do that. ok..playin w my stud intensively?
19. are you famous?
infamous? notorious? nah. dont think so.
21. describe your bed?
big, comfy. everyone loves my bed
22. spontaneous or planned?
spontaneous. i'll die from routine
23. do you know how to play poker?
not very well
24. what do you carry with you at all times?
phone
25. what do you miss most about being little?
being little.
26. are you happy with your given name?
i suppose. at least im not named..*ahem* sheng Y**N :X
27. how much would it take to give up the internet for 1 year?
a really hot lover.
28. what color is your bedroom?
blue. its supposeed to help me sleep! but it aint workin
29. have you ever been in a play?
yessssssssssssssssssss. i co-wrote it *beams*
30. do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
i love myself. i need people to believe in me before i do.
31. do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?
I AM NOT A MEANIE
32. do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
not really. im nice most times.
33. do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend? or with your friends?
friends. cant spend time even if i wanna.
34. what's one thing you wish you could do but u can't?
be unaffected
35. what is your ideal marriage location?
i dont want to get married.
36. whats one instrument you wish you could play?
the sax
37. something/someone you love and hate?
you. love u very much but i hate the way u make me feel.
40. whats one language you want to learn?
french.
41. what do you order at a bar?
cherry brandy w 7up. aha latest crave.
42. have you ever pierced your body parts?
yes many
43. do you have any tattoos?
soon.
44. whats one trait you hate in a person?
ego.
45. do you consider yourself materialistic?
to an extent i guess
46. what do you cook best?
nothing. HAHA. people will die if im ard. OH i can whip up some caramel custard :)
47. do you cry in front of your friend?
not really.
nothing is ever in black & white.
what can we really believe in this world
when everything is tinted?
what u hear or see,
is that the truth?
can u blame me for being cynical?
dun expect so much from me
cos i'm sick of living up to expectations.
i will not be what u want me to be.
when u realised what u had only after u lose it,
tt's too late;
but tt's only natural.
so love me when i'm gone.
make me no promises u dun intend to keep
say no empty words just to make me happy
dun take me so high & make me crash
tell me it's real.
i give u my love b'cos i want u to have it
so if u dun want it,
i shall take it back.
dun waste my time
my weakness is i care too much
so dun phunk with my heart.
oh, n dun ask me if u alr know the ans.
or if u dun wanna hear.
i keep quiet nt b'cos i dunno
or i dun c or hear
or even feel.
what's e pt of saying out?
nobody listens anyway.
~once bitten, twice shy.
i can no longer be certain of anything anymore.
all these thoughts are never resting
everyday after i shut e door behind me
once again,
confined to solitude.
i weep like a child
for my broken soul.
~look into my eyes, they'll tell u e truth.
*i'm not afraid to tell the world that i love u
**do & say like u mean it.
my mind will NOT go into overdrive.
Your body is the church where Nature asks to be reverenced.
since im so bored ive decided to do my quirks again. HAHA.
oh well. brand new day.
hi, you smell very nice but i dont think i will see u again.
lost and delirious aint we people?
happy children's day. (yesterday)
bored.
less x rated stuff on my blog from now on.
and a shout out to all the girls/guys/friends/lovers/freaks/weirdos/teacher(s) who's been reading my blog ;)
