how did it come to this?
im so fucking emo, i hate myself.
i hate everything.
im so sick of waiting when i dont even know what im waiting for.
i sleep every night and i wake up feeling the same way again.
i tell myself im being patient but what does fucking patience do to me?
its all a load of crap that's what that is and ive got so many choices my head i whirling with it but i dont want it.
i dont want the choices pushed up against my face.
but i dont want to be left without a choice.
im a selfish bitch and i should just shoot myself already to save everyone the pain of having to deal with me.
she hates me and maybe i should hate myself too.
i hate her, her and her.
i should just find myself a sweet dumb boyfriend and be done with it.
maybe i shouldnt have even known you.
maybe watching you from a distance was the best i could have it.
maybe i will mean it when i say get the fuck away from me.
maybe my guts will cease to squeeze one day when i think this.
oh god. im so fucking emo.
