how did it come to this?
what are boundaries? i am not bounded by limitations. my world is a huge place, a place full of people to have. hello world, listen up - i am out and i am ready to take you on, ready or not. i am not limited by age, gender, stereotypes, rules. i cannot be stopped by the word stop. i am an oncoming train with no brakes and you can either jump out or go along for the ride of your life. either way it'll hurt, but there's only one way that will provide you with the satisfaction of knowing. i love the life i lead. i love exploring the possibilities.
yet my life is full of lies. lie after lie after lies. a life of lying.
lying. i've always thought that lying is an integrated part of me. lies and me are like love and passion - they cannot live apart. lying is essential, like water, like love. however lies upon lies upon lies adding weight upon my back. i never thought lying would become such a chore. but lying is a bridge that leads me to you, i will never sever that line for anything. you are my lifeline and the lies are like blood running through it.
crude, but essential.
viewed from another angle lies are a buoy that keeps me afloat 'cause to have you is to float, and to not have you is to sink into the dark, bottomless sea. so i will go back to my lies, back to it and it'll not be a burgen at all because at the end of it all i'll have you waiting for me.
you. you're my light at the end of the tunnel you know. everytime i feel lost, feel meaningless going through the tunnel that seemingly has no ending, i'll look at that speck of light in the distance that's you and i'll be refreshed and ready for anything.
limits. i dont know my limits. i dont know when to stop. i flirt with danger. i flirt with the restricted. i flirt with the danger of not stopping. the consequences i have to face. im actually scared of what i will do. the thing is, i dont want to stop. i never want to stop especially where you are concerned. its exhilariting and exciting and unlike any other feeling i've felt before. you drive me nuts.
im going crazy but im loving every minute of it.
