the sky has lost its color.
the skies became gray the day u left and it reflects how i feel perfectly. my insides are gorged our and scattered all over the heavens - an artwork of black, white and gray.
can u see me high up there?
i'm empty now and that's how i feel and my organs grow cold without u to painstakingly pluck them out of the skies and attach them back to me again. a shroud has permanantly settled over my world, the sun cant get through. nobody can. i lock myself in the darkness and though its claustophobic and i cant breathe i stay in it, for to venture out into the bright sunlight without you near is like stumbling into the crowd blind. and mute. and deaf.
i am disabled without you. you are my arms, my legs, and importantly, my heart. my brains are lonely without my heart and i lose the ability to think straight. a head without a heart is a dangerous head, and i feel that way. my heart is with you and i dont have it, nor do i have u to guide me. i step warily into the jungle and encounter the worst of all situations. do i fight, or do i run? i dont know, my head refuses to answer, my heart cant. my head is blank. my limbs are weak. and so i sink down, into the quicksand.
its no use struggling cause i'll sink faster the more i struggle. and while my head might tell me to climb out, and my limbs fail to obey. my head has lost its control over me. without the heart, my head is nothing. i am nothing, and so i shall be nothing, passing into the darkness, a silent yawning void of pain settling over me.